Face the music

Finally, it's time to face the music.

Talked to my dad the whole time we went out to have dinner. In the midst of all those conversation, i realised it's been a long time since i talk to him. Worst, itive been a long time since i realli looked at him. For a moment, i seem to already forget how he looked.

During the conversation, i got to know how much he and my mum have sacrificed for me and my bro. But ironically, none of us know. It led me to ponder abt my past where i made sacrifices too, which the other party didnt know. But i am still willing to do it cos of love, Just like my parents. So many flashbacks, good and bad.

I think i have been confused for too long and i have already forgotten who am i. Dad talked abt the strengths and weaknesses of one's character and i can think of any strengths that i possess. But plently of my negative character. ask char she knows alot lol. agreed by many.

i am not ashamed but im looking forward to change. cant always disappoint my parents and see them cry. it's really the last thing i wanna see again.

I'm such a fool

These few days pple are like not blogging. sigh. Dunno what's wrong with them, not like me blog regularly. =) Just finished soccer played for almost 5 hours. Got to admit i'm old already. Cannot run as much as i used to. Scored quite alot =) but when i'm the keeper i let in alot too =( cos all kick the ball like 200kmh, see the ball coming equals siam.

I need to work, i need money.

I thought i have solve a problem and guess what. a bigger problem occur. Now i'm in deep shit got my bro to be my scrapgoat. I thought everything is properly handled already but it was not. Later, i got to know he have difficulties too through my mum.

I'm such a fool and i didnt know. Hmmm. Being the baby of the family is good. But when will he/she grow up. Getting into trouble is a good method though.

Been out with Joel almost everyday. He's going back on the 20th. 1 lesser person in Yf to talk to. I read the poster in PM abt God's love and i teared.

"My love has always been there, will u take it now. "