Face the music

Finally, it's time to face the music.

Talked to my dad the whole time we went out to have dinner. In the midst of all those conversation, i realised it's been a long time since i talk to him. Worst, itive been a long time since i realli looked at him. For a moment, i seem to already forget how he looked.

During the conversation, i got to know how much he and my mum have sacrificed for me and my bro. But ironically, none of us know. It led me to ponder abt my past where i made sacrifices too, which the other party didnt know. But i am still willing to do it cos of love, Just like my parents. So many flashbacks, good and bad.

I think i have been confused for too long and i have already forgotten who am i. Dad talked abt the strengths and weaknesses of one's character and i can think of any strengths that i possess. But plently of my negative character. ask char she knows alot lol. agreed by many.

i am not ashamed but im looking forward to change. cant always disappoint my parents and see them cry. it's really the last thing i wanna see again.