29th Aug

Indescribable. No one know what His plans are. No 1 can fully comprehend Him. hmm But know tt He places the best for us to grow.

Something cute happen today. was using the com den hear my mum scream for me.. i ran to the kitchen and found out she super-glued herself. so cute. She is so frightened. I panicked. I asked her to change and wanted to bring her to the doctor. she refused. Soi called my cousin who is a nurse and ask for solutions. So i used oil on my mum. tinner. den use plastic fork to 'saw'. but my mum say its painful.. den after so long.. 30 mins. she use her nails to like dig push pull den ok alr -.-

My mum thanked me. I felt weird. i'll do anything for my parents and i'll do it not for the thank you.. just feel so weird. hmm why must be so ke qi.

Did my final yr project today.. today did a lil only.. and what we did. did not work. great. whatever. Projects are dumb. Must start a petition to end all project work.. and maybe exams.. ahah. hmm maybe not.. if its like that, then what for study.

I'm so tired today dunno why.. i think i go rest. cya =)

20th August

i decided not to close my blog.. i don't care anyway.. i'll blog as and when i like.. i can blog wadeva i want.. who cares whether if any1 reads =) its just me myself and I.
this is a place i can shout my stuffs out, a place to keep my shitty feelings, my sorrows and *poof*. go out with a smile again. I just want to bring pple joy.. =) why pull a long face hmm. go home den pull lor.

Every 1 has their problems. why do you need to burden them? haha so i put my sorrows at home and go out with a smile. perhaps its not the 'real' you but i dunno.

God has given me a big big big exam. and i kept failing it! arrgh freak. i just can't let it go. but i MUST! im just hurting myself. I just cant stand him. Fortunately, God changed me. Or else i'll beat the hell out of him.

Hey dude, if you are reading. i know you have been holding hands often with char and talk on the phone almost every night. can see you are making a move. treat her well ya? yep i don't like you. So you don't have to like me either. Try to know her more. She has alot of weird habits, weird likings etc[alot]. Take care of her. k nth to say to you bye.


Char is a great gal. She is cute, pretty. =). She is sweet sometimes but she can be mean at times. She is frank and freaking straight forward, people who don't know her will be offended sometimes.She is actually a child in disguise, like a small gal. At times, im quite worried for her. She is often clumsy and careless. She is a direction idiot. She loves to sing. She loves nachos. still got so many more. lazy to state. and why am i stating haha. lalala~

i feel so silly. Starting of her poly. she say she has a 'bf' in class. i was jealous but i didn't want to spoil her fun. so i smiled and let her be. Sometimes i joke with her "where's ur bf?" "meeting your bf ah?" in the end... ahha she fell for him. What to do? Nothing.

Just remember i haven eat yet.. the whole day.. played 6 hr badminton some more. I'm still alive. maybe eat supper later.

i found that i'm actually an introvert. i love to be at home i love to be alone. hmm. I find that alot of pple sont know me. Is it im hiding the real me? really few people know me well haha. wooot! i just woke up. i seemed to see alot of things clearly.. im wasting sooo much time. i've neglected my friends so much. damn.

God thanks for this test. i know I'll grow and learn from this lesson. I'll pass it 1 day. i know I've been wasting time in sadness. I love you Lord =) Thank you for carrying me during my difficult times.