AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR

It all ended.

2008-05-10T03:18:00.003+08:00

It all came to an end before it even started.

You asked me what is Love?
To me, It's just giving without asking anything in return. It's never abt who is giving more or less. there's no point in comparing. What ever you do you will just think of the person. When she's not around you'll be wondering if she's fine. When she's not feeling well, you'd worry. When she's sad, your heart hurts.

I enjoyed myself during this time. It's been years someone touched my heart after Charlene left me. Thank you for all the times we shared. I've guess it'd end someday by you. But i told myself i just had to make the best out of it. Cos like what i've said, nothing good stays long in my life.

Just when i am ready to love, i fell back, hard. Reach your area at 1225 and waited. I didn't even smoke. I just waited. Finally 2am he drove you back. But when i hear your voice when i talk to you i knew you got something bad to tell me. And i anticipated it.

I decided to write here cos no one reads what i wrote here. It's been like a yr since i blogged. And you knowing i don't blog anymore, wouldn't come and check. Even if you do, it'd be after a long time and you might already forget abt me. I don't want to bother you with my feelings.

My heart hurts. Sigh. What hurts more is when you say it out of your own will. Haha, silly of me to think so much. Even more silly of me to think finally something good might happen to me. The truth hurts, but I'm never good enough.

I saw him, I envied him. All the best to you and him.

Take care of yourself. Please eat your meals regularly. If you fall sick, PLEASE remember your medicine okay! Don't be so forgetful ya?

Thank you for everything.

Goodbye to my happy ending.

Last blog entry b4 i enter OCS

2007-03-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

If you guys know, i've been slacking in CMPB doing nothing cos i'm waiting for my PILOT MEDICAL report. So i'm posted somewhere freaking near my house which i walk to and after work. Life there was really good and all my buddies there were so relunctant to leave the place. I'll miss them though. Although it'sjust a short 3 mths, we shared multiple happy moments and our soccer games every monday,wednesday and friday.

Oh btw, it's a 8-5 job la.

Now, i'm posted back from air force to army side. So got my posting a few days ago an im quite depressed. OCS. sigh. Officer Course School. Yeah, i agree the pay is high but still it's alot tougher den Sispec. and its super long course. (9 mths).
It's still weird i was posted to OCS. Most of my friends at CMPB are posted to Sispec though. hmmm.

Ok time to pack all my army equipment. sigh. Wish me all the best peeps.! =)

Cherish what you have before you lose what matters most to you

2007-02-12T02:29:00.000+08:00

In anticipation i had to wait
The day we had to meet
To fall alseep on my bed
You're all that i need

Life's journey you came
Hope's all that you brought
Ever keeping me tame
That's what I've been taught

Months together
Love is all that you gave
All aren't just flatters
'Cause it's me you've saved

Ever will our love grow strong
May God oversee
However we may be wrong
Possibility lies in Thee

In faith we pray
For the day we pledge
To be together we stay
Till our lives' edge

Stumbled upon this poem which made me smile.
(Thank you)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!~~

2007-01-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

First of all, happy new year to all of you guys out there.

Yesterday countdown to 2007 at Glenn's house with some friends. It's damn havoc haha. i started drinking b4 they did. We played 007 bang, those who make mistake will have to drink. I was almost perfect. Played blackjack after tt. $$ and vodka. haha i won $$ yay.

We played indian poker or whatever its called. That's when those ass took revenge. When i lose 1 time they poured 1 super big cup full of PURE VODKA. argh! after drinking tt, i'm as good as gone. It's my 1st time getting drunk. Now i know how it's like. It's realli not comfortable haha. Seriously cannot walk properly. vomitted like nobody's business.

"There's hope for people who've never had a biblical heritage and there's hope for those who've lost what they had."

New year new resolutions
God
Family
You

2006-12-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

char's b day

2006-12-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

28th Dec is dumb char's birthday. she's getting old hee. I rushed home after work to bake her a cake. Suppose to meet der, yvonne and her for dinenr but i took so long to bake a cake!! argh!

So i skipped dinner with them and continued with my cake baking. With the help of a cookbook and the expert(my mum) i completed baking the cake MYSELF. weee. Now i knwo how freakin 'ma fan' it is to bake 1 cake so much effort is to be done. So many steps. It was my first time baking a cake so ya. haha warned her about it but she said its nice. dunno whether she is comforting me anot.

I cut the cake into 4 but onli gave her 2, simply cos i did not purchase enough ingredients. Haha. ooops. All in all i thing everything went well. Planned to wait for her outside her house b4 she gets home but apparently, i did not make it in time. Waited for a cab for 30+ mins in the rain.

I was so eager to show her wad i did for her only to see her eat 1 mouth of my cake!

=((((((((((((((((((

Cos she was too full after her dinner. She is like tt cant eat much =( so yup. nvm lor put in the fridge. Hope she likes what i did for her. hmmm.

Christmas is coming

2006-12-22T14:21:00.000+08:00

I was surprised i didn't blogged for like 3 mths +. Have been very busy after entering army. Field camps, SIT test, live range, handgrenade, blah blah blah.
Booking out on Sat afternoon and den book in on sunday simply dun allow me to have much time on the com. hee

BMT is finally over and i got posted to a very slack vocation =). FEP Trainee (Flying Experience Program). They made it sound so wow but actually its just do admin work. I signed for pilot and i passed my COMPASS test and interview with the high ranks. Now, i'm left with my medical report. Guess i'll fail it cos of my spine. It's a lil crooked =(

Basically, my job is 8-5 and i practically do nth but slp and read newspaper/magazines. haha told a few of my BMT mates and they kept complaining saying its unfair. ahha Who ask u guys fail ur COMPASS TEST. =P

Been packing some of my stuffs, and came across a organiser which i used last time. had a few gd laughs as i recall wad i have been doing for the past yrs. It's really useful to keep your organiser/ diary. Entertaining.

I even wrote down things like " made char angry/tear etc" haha. Always so excited and happy when i write down when is our next meeting time and place. Though now is still the same. But ITS SO HARD TO ASK U OUT NOW. stupid char. busy gal. haha i shall bug u till u nodd ur mushroom head.

lalala

2006-09-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

Dad is getting better phew~

went sentosa ytd with glenn, yihao and charlotte. haha. was so relaxing. Thank God it's so windy. Lying there was so shiok. went to tanjong beach. cos we dun wna to go to siloso, too many pple there. its teachers' day so many pple but tanjong beach isnt that packed.

tanjong beach = dog beach.

lol saw more den 6 dogs there. free entertainment. dogs are lovable. hanging out at the beach is quite relaxing.weee

gonna go in army soon. yay wasted so much time alr.

Dad's surgery

2006-08-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm last week my mum and I accompany my dad for a pre operation checkup thing. yup my dad gonan go for an operation. sigh. im worried. hope everything will be ok. i guess i need every1 to help me pray.. but dunno how mani will, maybe in the end no 1 would.

Met up with glenn and charlotte finally. She finally came back from Turkey after 2 months. She went backpacking with another gal. haha i will never have the kind of courage and independence to do tt. Dunno why , we decided to explore Chinatown. haha walked for maybe 3 hours and den walked to Riverside there tot sit and chat. we always have thigns to talk abt =)

bah.. dunno wad to blog. too worried for my dad.

=)

2006-08-15T12:14:00.000+08:00

ok, it's been such a long time since i blog again. doesn't seem to have the interest to blog. been busy lately too. cant remember what happen recently. only remembered i went to PlanetShakers concert with tab,dia,nat,caleb,aug,alston,mq,liru. The place was damn packed. hmmm. we stood at the front and the most irritating part is that in the goodie bag theres a balloon. You're suppose to blow it and hit it ard. so. there are like millions of ballon flying over ur head. ok wrong, there are millions of ballons smackin ur head!

Unknowingly, those pple behind me are short. so even they hit up. its my head there are hitting. those soft kind i dun mind. but is the hard type. -.- i think the idea that the producer or wadeva came up with is useless and stupid. cos u distract pple to focus on God.

As i looked at some pple. im thinking are they worshipping God or are they worshipping the band? sigh.

Went to play lan with my friends ytd and saw JJ-Jun Jie. the singer. hmmm and heard from them that he always play there. Does famous pple always wear cap? haha so sad. they have to hide their faces.

Face the music

2006-07-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's time to face the music.

Talked to my dad the whole time we went out to have dinner. In the midst of all those conversation, i realised it's been a long time since i talk to him. Worst, itive been a long time since i realli looked at him. For a moment, i seem to already forget how he looked.

During the conversation, i got to know how much he and my mum have sacrificed for me and my bro. But ironically, none of us know. It led me to ponder abt my past where i made sacrifices too, which the other party didnt know. But i am still willing to do it cos of love, Just like my parents. So many flashbacks, good and bad.

I think i have been confused for too long and i have already forgotten who am i. Dad talked abt the strengths and weaknesses of one's character and i can think of any strengths that i possess. But plently of my negative character. ask char she knows alot lol. agreed by many.

i am not ashamed but im looking forward to change. cant always disappoint my parents and see them cry. it's really the last thing i wanna see again.

I'm such a fool

2006-07-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

These few days pple are like not blogging. sigh. Dunno what's wrong with them, not like me blog regularly. =) Just finished soccer played for almost 5 hours. Got to admit i'm old already. Cannot run as much as i used to. Scored quite alot =) but when i'm the keeper i let in alot too =( cos all kick the ball like 200kmh, see the ball coming equals siam.

I need to work, i need money.

I thought i have solve a problem and guess what. a bigger problem occur. Now i'm in deep shit got my bro to be my scrapgoat. I thought everything is properly handled already but it was not. Later, i got to know he have difficulties too through my mum.

I'm such a fool and i didnt know. Hmmm. Being the baby of the family is good. But when will he/she grow up. Getting into trouble is a good method though.

Been out with Joel almost everyday. He's going back on the 20th. 1 lesser person in Yf to talk to. I read the poster in PM abt God's love and i teared.

"My love has always been there, will u take it now. "

Work

2006-06-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Have been working for 3 days. 1st day paper work is so slack. sit there and earn money. 2nd isnt like that anymore. they need pple to do tele marketing. so okie.. i did. some people are pure morons who can be really mean but nvm it's my job and i have to "smile" and have a positive attitude still =)

tele marketing is stressful. cos the boss is damn "result-oriented". if i do v lil = scolding and more scolding. heng this 2 days i did ok. but the stress is there. I guess being a waiter is better. no stress. No "homework" to pass up.

The boss assistant is so nice. ahha she's liek a friend. not a hypocrite though cos u can feel it and she is an active christian. hoho. wadeva. work is stressful under this type of boss. irritating. cant wait to get my pay cos i owe the whole world money. i will clr all my debts after i get my pay =)

Movie marathon

2006-06-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

Ytd met Tab and dia at JE. bra was late as usual. so we went to the food court and ate. that was the 1st time dia eat "xiao wan mian" mountain turtle. while helping her to shift the wok, i burnt myself. =(

The initial plan was to ice skate. but it was far far far too crowded. so we took neo prints -.- i was forced obviously. so 4 of us did stupid things inside. everything was so rush. =(haven prepare den picture is alr snapped.

we went to the arcade for a while to kil ltime. hmm played the skee ball. sian. dia cheated but still got 20. bra got 20 too. tab 40, i 10. sigh~

We played risk ( lord of the ring version ). It's damn confusing la. But its quite fun actually. but we didnt finish playing. ordered pizza. and we watched "The Red Shoes". horro movie la. but i think it's funny. We are watching movie but dia is watching the pillow ( cos she hides behind it )

We went to 7-11 to get some food and drinks. After that we played LIFE and the normal risk. sian they all alliance against me as usual. Only i played fair la. In the end i only hasve the stupid australia continent.

We watched Big mama house2 but in the end all KO-ed, left me and sean. The best thing is we both watched already. The one who suggested it,tab, was the 1st to slp la. dumbo.

After that we went to sleep. I was chase out of the big sofa by Tab and dia, ended up on the floor.

Youth camp

2006-06-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

Youth camp is finally over. The talks were actually quite interesting. liked the way he writes. missed some talks as i was talking to caleb. trying to get him to join us. So if the commitee thinks im not doing my job. Sorry, i just have to handle other things. anw i know you guys can handle.

Guess I didnt do a gd job in leading. Christabel was right. The girls in our church are very "nu qiang ren" and im too soft haha. She gave some advice but dont think im ready to lead or even get them to listen. So basically im figure head Roy. In the end was just a sai gang worker. =/

Suppose to sing in the concert but i withdrew cos Joce and I are to prepare the games during the concert but in the end she wanted to sit thru the whole concert so yea. no jeans = become audience. But it's enjoyable too.

To be angry or hate some1, you have committed murder. That's 1 of the 10 commandments. hoho im like 1 of the top 10 serial killer of singapore already =(. Have not been seeking God's advice for a long time. Strayed away. The camp is beneficial as im at least getting back to the track.

God spoke to me about something. Something i'm not quite sure about. Is it what i wanted or is it my purpose that He has given me. I have to pray pray pray. Is it still God's purpose if you are doing something that every1 despise but for a greater good? Or is it my sin and im finding an excuse to cover it. i think i'll ask the adults haha.

Been really troubled lately. Got myselfinto deep trouble. Damaged the car quite a bit. The expenses are high. Dunno wad am i suppose to do. Stupid car accident .Feeling very vexed and gets agitated easily sigh~

Starting to get irritated when pple say that im rich or i have alot of money. They just don't seem to know me. I'm so heavily burden and who knows, no point showing it out and make every1 busy

. Thank you Lord, i know i still have You.

Boo! Have to change my bad habits. Hope army will nurture me.

Suddenly have the urge to learn how to play drums. Can't really play that well. Wasn't realli encouraged but often mocked and spilled with unpleasant remarks. haha who cares, i'm playing for Him.

Chalet

2006-06-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

Just came back from chalet on thursday. was too shaag after that. ahha It's the most enjoyable chalet ever. Everything was just perfect. I rented a car so the chalet is just a place for us to stay =).

The 1st day we reach at 3+ ahha lost our way there =( hmm. made some wasted trips but its ok. we had fun in the car too. We checked in den we slpt ahha. cos it was raining and we couldnt do much. woke up at ard 5+ and we went escape theme park. There's only 4 "can make it" rides. so ya. lol quite fun though. The worst thing is We were actually freaked out by the haunted house. We tot it was lame in fact it wasnt ahha. No 1 dares to walk 1st. so in the end Glenn was forced to walk 1st when i claimed that i have a weak heart haha. So 4 of us held hands. the guys 1 front 1 back. 2 girls in between. We just scream whenever something move. There are real people hiding with the statues too. so irritating.

After that, we drove to orchard and went to the ktv. sing till shag. went back all these already 5am. We bought cup noodles and more snacks to fill our stomache and den slpt till 11 den we headed to pulau ubin =) cycling was fun. A bit tiring.
We headed back to the chalet and swam (and wash our shorts which is dirty with mud) whahaha. =P

We went orchard again to chill den went airport and east coast park =) We had a great time chatting. Back to the chalet i knocked out ahha.

We knew each other so long. Glad that we actually made efforts to get tgd. =)

NEXT: Youth camp. Next week. 14-17june

Too long since i blogged

2006-05-26T12:58:00.000+08:00

wow. so long never blog already. haha. too busy. been driving for a few days already. rented a car =) im so dependent on the car. sigh~ don't feel like returning. how i wish that the car is mine. sigh.

Owning a car is so so so convinient. the onli thing is that the petrol is so ex. hmm. But can manage la. I LOVE TO DRIVE hehe. my chalet is coming =) nxt nxt week i think. hmm. yay.

Went to check out the cmpsite tt day with Joce and MQ. The place quite small la. haha. but i think the Youth room can be quite cool. sound proof some more i think.
Only when going back Joce made me do like 10 U-turns -.- stupid keep giving wrong and late direction and i mean LATE directions. Irritating. AMber light i speed up they both hit me =.=" continuously.

Tonight will be last tennis lesson. hmm. hope everything goes well. and i dun forget my skills easily.

CHALET HERE I COME

Bad Day

2006-05-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

tonight is just a bad night. had dinenr with my family. All was well till my bro and my mum started to quarrel about money. i was happily eating as the quarrel was mild and wasn't serious. AND FUCK it, it became worst. my mum started to tear. ok and people out there who knows me well. it's a nono for my mum to cry.

So i shouted at my bro and we started quarrreling. Vulgarities started to fly and here comes my dad's turn. He scolded me for my usage of words and i stared and my dad. Told him i dun care and i'm pissed when pple scold my mum. and i walk off the coffee shop. went home myself. i always cry when im angry. fuck it. so weird.

Till now mum's eyes still teary. sibei dulan. no mood.

morale of the story: u can scold me but nv involve my mum

Cycling day

2006-05-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

ytd met Glenn, kah yan and charlotte at china town at 1030. All of them were late so ended up at 1130. We took bus no. 197 and went EAST COAST hahas. The weather is so nice super sunny and windy. i realli thank God for that. We cycled and ky roller blade. It's realli enjoyable. The way they cycle is already a joke. Glenn got lousy biking skills and charlotte claims she is an aggressive biker. haha

Cycled for 2 hours and we ate Macs. den charlotte studied while we read magazines. She have exams in 2 weeks time. Ky went off 1st to meet her fren. So after like 2 hours of break. We are tempted to have evening to night cycling, and we did. That's another 2 hours. so cool. it's so amazing that we are still so close even if we don't go out that often. but now we are starting to meet up regularly. =)

We walked to Parkway Parade and played arcade. the arcade is pathetic. We played quite a few times of the "Photo hunt" and played those realli ancient times arcade games. Those which dispense tickets. Like balance the ball down the spiral lane, hit the moles with hammer, and others. It's funny. Ate pastamania and we headed home. Great outing.

While we cycle it's so quiet and a lil deserted which was so nice. cos it's a weekday there's a lot lesser pple to disturb us. Feel like going Bintan already. but it's cancelled and ky was grounded. Damn. So we agreed on a chalet =)

mouse: take care. Take the initiative, if not who will?

I'm so tired.

2006-05-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

i getting more and more tired each day. have been working quite alot for my dad these few days. According to my lifestyle now i can onli slp at 3am. Helping my dad means i have to wake up at 5am.so ya. dead tired.

Was reading a magazine just now while waing for Glenn. Abt gals perferring bad boys. So the gals said goody-two shoes are straight and boring. but they said depends of wad kind of r/s. If they wanan get married by 24 den ya choose the "goody" den and end of story.
The gals commented that bad boy might even have a gd heart. hmmm hope im along the line. Perhaps im bad boy bad heart O.O .shit

Just realised i have lots of wrinkles when i do expressions. why!!! arrgghh im so random. dia gonna scold me again.

spend like $60 bucks today sian. Nvm. pamper myself. nv did for quite a long time. Bought boxers and er cardholder cum money holder. Ate like alot of times today. Phoebe's birthday party, mac, pastamania, kfc, cafe cartel. whahaha. feel like vomitting. and tts in like 5 hours.

Tmr got cell and den soccer hoho. time to exercise roy. =)

Work.

2006-04-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

Now it's 130am, i'm eating koko krunch and 4 hours later i'll be working for my dad. sian. stupid bastard uncle. Dun get the wrong idea that im scolding cos he is not working. Got alot of factors, moron. ( Not the christian uncle, the other). Always steal my dad's money. f***. i'm always easily agitated when it comes to my parents. i love them.

Kiwi send me the song "all for love". i find it a nice song. it's by hillsongs btw. The lyrics is so meaningful.

Oh, how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive if only I ask

Yes, i guess i have broken God's heart lots of time or perhaps all the time. But all i have to do is to ask him to forgive me. However, am i asking him to forgive me?

Met up Lyd on monday. gave her tuition suppose to be maths as that's the only thing i can help her with. but she studied bio instead as she had test the nxt day. didnt help much. useless me. sry dia. After that Der happily abandon me after eating. Stupid.

Was with Glenn and co. ytd. We ate fondue at Choz. It was nice, cos Glenn works there he knew the gal obviously and so we had more hot chocolate to dip in. muahahah *evil* We even drank milkshakes from Macs at lido. Didnt know it's tt nice. (strawberry and vanilla) Glenn said the chocolate 1 sucked. So guys try at your own risk.

Later in the afternoon going blastier to jam with bra nat and der. Hope everything turn out well and all of us will enjoy ourselves. At night going KTV with Glenn they all.Guess i'll reach home at 3am den lata 5am work again AHHHH!!!! if i die, u guys know the reason.

Youth camp is on 14 june. im the kind of in charge -.- overall. Hope i can control everyone on the camp day itself.lazy to be fierce like when im in military band =( haha but i think im going bintan with glenn they all during the 1st week of june. cool rite. dive, drive, slack there =) BINTAN HERE WE COME. CLEAR BLUE SEA!

Day at home.

2006-04-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

today got nth to do so stayed at home and be a good boy. vacuum the floor and read Straits Times.

stupid char have a new blog le.hmm guess she have things to forget i think. Too much bad memories with me liao ahhaah. eh go make tag board leh. i wanna tag oso cannot. or is my com too lousy tt i cannot see the tag board.

Char, you talked about lan. hmmm yep we have to show pple that we are different. yes we can by bringing them to church and join us for Youth fellowship. Lan is just an activity for us to get together. That's what i thought. it's the same as sometimes u girls go shopping like that. "is this dress nice?" "Wa, look at this handbag" "WOOO sales" guess it's the same hee. Just different point of view.

I want to tag you =( .

Had cell ytd. Everyone was late except me. 20 mins early. -.- No one was at Der house. so i just stone at the station. Met Nat first den headed to Der's hhouse much later. Cell was okie. Just that not sure daryl understands anot. Cos the book we are doing is definitly more difficult. Sometimes he answers correctly sometimes he is out of point. But i think he is improving and by doing this he will learn faster. We just have to be more patient in helping him. Will appreciate it if the one leading the cg make sure he is following. Atleast he is willing to learn and have a time of fellowship. Others just give excuses to not come or ignore msgs.

19 hours of coma

2006-04-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

Thursday went out with deirdre to catch a movie "take the lead" a dancing show.
not bad if u like dance. 2 hour show. A lil draggy, but i like =)
after that met up with Glenn and some other friends. Ate desserts at Cartel cos it
10pm, way past dinner time. Proceed to church to join the ever entertaining Youth group.
A very noisy bunch of people with gre8 enthusiam. Played games and had good fellowship.
in the end i onli slept for 15 mins. Lie there for 5 mins and Joce phone rang
-.- thx to Jun xiang. den After that every 2 mins got pple open the door and ask us to wake up.
Cos it was time for morning service le. So nv slp haha sian.
After service we had worship prac. I'm not going to church early cos of work on sunday
so i didnt get involve. So i went out to get lunch for the rest with purple.
So mani orders haha from different place some more. After everything
Der send every1 to the most convenient place for Char, Nat, Tab, Alston
except me. as usual-.-

19 hours of coma. 4pm till almost 11am.

Okie im gonna blog something out. I smoke! ok yes i smoke cigarettes.
Nothing to hide. Even my parents found out cos i left it inside my pocket
and i forgot to take out. bah~ Don't any 1 of you nag me. I'm quitting so ya.
Dad talk to me beat ard the bush. He changed alot. Years back he will always shout
or hit me. But now wad i see is a disappointed dad. Weary eyes, loving dad.
Mum asked me too, disappointed too. Sigh~ bad son.

i wrote a note to them last last week telling them i love them, and dad
told me they are so happy during the talk. i teared. I'm useless.

Okays, enough of that. Played lan with Lyd and Tab. Had fun =) ahah.
Great company. Played a lil arcade too =P. after that ate chicken rice and all headed
home. Love their company. they are great fun. Oh we played a game so currently Lyd owes us swensens.
Hope i dun do any stupid mistake lata tt will end up me paying for it.

I'm bad company

2006-04-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

met purple today and ate jap food. super full the whole day. the food is damn nice. she wanted to pay but too bad =P no need la. den we proceeded to purchase things.
Tab ur present is $104 im sry i dun print $$$ ahahah.

Teared today sigh.. haha but yep everything is ok. Family matters.

today quite moody.. cos found out smth bad. got i like am 1st in some1's black list la. some more is a parent -.- bad bad bad. nvm i also nv do any to ur child. dun wry. when im moody i like to walk. got down at tiong bahru and walked home. bought cake for my mum. but she was slping when i reach home. hmm. tmr perhaps =)

bad day... *pui* no NS letter still CMPB sucks. bad day. handphone button sticker dropped. bad day. ear piece cushion lost. bad bad bad

Insomia

2006-04-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

alrite slept damn late last nite like 5am. couldnt get to sleep. In the end chatted with my parents when they woke up and prepare to go work which is like 3 am. after that played game with bro. cos he too cant get any slp. slpt awhile den work. came back and knocked out.

Did nth thewhole day. im wasting time here. hope i get into army soon but things seems to be bad. cos all my classmates got their army letter except me. So i might be the september intake if thats the case i'll either burn down CMPB or i'll curse the person's balls daily. and bryan's cos he cursed me. ahaha jinx freak.

had dinner with family. we walked home. was abt 20 mins walk or more. held my mum's hand all the way home. haha weird in the beginning but i felt good. I can't remember when is the last time i actually chat with her. she talked abt her child hood times the whole time. =)

i guess im too caught up with my stuffs and neglecting my parents. even if im at home i dun talk to them much.

Ice Age Is Over!

2006-04-06T02:18:00.000+08:00

Seductive day haha (private joke)

hmmm anyway met purple early to get some stuffs. After tt we rushed to PS to catch ice age 2. we walked to ps from orchard and it rained 1/2 way -.- and it was my idea haha. sry purple. Don't fall sick on me k.

6 out of 7 went for the movie. Bra mq char me lyd and joce. der didnt come as he had to go malaysia for dunno wad reason. You stil lhave to pay me $ der. =) the show is ok la quite funny. But too short. After that we ate at swensens. All of them ordered like expensive stuffs. Being the poor me i just ordered a drink =( (Dun say i act poor ok). All headed home after that saying they are tired.

Now im here listening to songs that purple burned for me. thx didnt know you're efficient haha. turtles are meant to be slow.

It's raining

2006-03-31T20:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out till quite late. KTV 11-3am. Went with Glenn and his friends. everything went smoothly la. no awkwardness. I stepped into my room to get my clothes to bathe and the next thing i know im sleeping in a very smoky room. KTV smell.

Went to tennis 1/2 way and i realised tennis was cancelled -.- called char and ask her wanna have dinenr tgd but as usual zhong she qing you. Together with him haha. so i head back home -.- waste my trip fare la. sian. on the train, a lady fell on me cos the train jerk. Her weight was all on my arm cos she was on my right. Heng i'm strong la. didnt fumble at all. THE BEST THING IS she thank the guy behind me WTF. feel like slapping her but nvm. cos i dun help for pple's recognition. i help cos i want to. hmm im talkin nonsense again. i'm getting slpy.

Bored, I'm too free

2006-03-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

I just did a personality test. quite cute actually.

Hmm, you taste of Pink Grapefruit!

Mmm ... pink grapefruit! Sweet and tart at the same time, you're bursting with sun-kissed goodness. If you were a song, you'd be "Wake up Boo!" by the Boo Radleys. You’d tell everyone that it’s a beautiful morning. That's not to say that you don't have an edge -- quite the contrary. In fact, a little bit of sugar (aka gifts, praise, and other goodies) can always help bring out your naturally sweet flavour. But when it comes down to it, you prefer friends who can match you in strength and independence. Luckily, that kind of attitude is appealing, so you always have them wanting more. Citrusy, tangy, and a little exotic, you're a truly tasty treat.

haha i taste like a grapefruit. Not sure it protrays me well anot. It's always difficult to judge urself.

Now a little aimless. Rather go school now. cos at least have friends to talk cock with and keep myself occupied. Dunno why my whole body aching. Now I'm worried i can't get in any University after my NS. cos my results realli sucked alot. sigh.

Happy days?

2006-03-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Been going out lately. Shop quite a bit. was "psycho-ed" to spend alot instead of saving thx to deirdre.. dumb.

I think the Sun is like not co-operative? ytd i went to swim cos the sun was so gd. but when i jump into the pool. pooooof~ it's gone. den there's this stupid huge cloud which stretches to the horizon lahs. -.- and today i decided to stay at home and slack. The sun burn the hell out of itself and theres no clouds. sigh. nvm im free now anw i can go other time.

im getting super fat. dammit. like tummy boy. sigh. i think Char said before that i grew fatter!! AHHHHH CHAR TELL ME ITS POSITIVE KIND CAN> like perhaps muscles or wad. LOL. but oso dunno wad u doing now. always not online. haha take care gal. and ya. pls be more alert. DUN get molested ok?

Glenn's birthday is round the corner and i haven't got him a present yet. tt moron is in thailand now i think. some school stuffs. shall i get him a condom from condom mania? dunno he will get to use it anot.

now got nice show on chn 5 cya. lol

Am I Gonna Retain?

2006-03-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

Judging from how i do for my ecams i think i'm gonna retain like 2 subjects. I dun seem to know how to do a proper question. Writing nonsense stuffs and some question i didnt even study till there. cos i fell aslp every night before the exams.

i've strayed far.who knows wad im doing.. hmm haha nth to blog leh.. cos it's exxam week. waste of time. and im in deep shit. bryan like quite confident. sigh.

Broken dreams

2006-02-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a dream. When you know that your dream can't come true, isn't it so disappointing. Everytime i think of mine. i can't help but turn moody and yea. sigh~
Sometimes wished that some1 will standby me quietly, understand me and hold me. hahas, I'm asking too much.

exams sucks. gonna fail the one i took that day. it's like so difficult. i didn't even finish studying the whole course book lah. got like 2 question in the paper i didn't know it's in the book lah. didn't even study till that chapters.. freak.

I know i'm so dead if i dont study. but still i dun feel the need to study. why -.- Bryan seems to like finish studying. always look so confident and always have the same answer with the majority when everyone compares ans after exam.

sian feel moody. im out of here.

i need a hug

Exams.

2006-02-18T12:52:00.000+08:00

Weee. dunno wad's wrong with every1. cos no 1 is blogging, no 1 updates their blog. except me.. ahha finally im more consistant in blogging lah. im so proud of myself. hmmm but this will be one of the shortest blog entry i guess. cos i'm going out soon. To study ! wahah yea. you didnt read wrongly im gonna study. i hope. having my final exams like in a few days time and yes again i haven started yet.

Just pray for me guys, that i have the discipline to do so soon. this will be my last exam in poly. and i'm gonna graduate. cool. but even so. i dun seem to leave behind this sch. Many things happen and yea gd and bad. but i simply enjoyed it. and i'll definitely miss everything and everyone.

Everyone will always come to this point of life where you will have to say goodbye to some friends whom u are with everyday. Primary 6 u say gdbye to pple you know for 6 yrs. sec4 you say gdbye to buddies which have gone through so much with you. mostly troubles. like cheating in exams and yea im the 1 caught thx to some1 who told the teacher and almost got caned. Secondary sch is so fun. i guess that where it moulds most of your character. Poly is where i furhter improve and bring out more. =P think im crapping again~ lol. Poly is fun too though 50% of the time i skip sch. haven been to class for around 2 whole months already. friends i grew close in class is bryan and alvin.

Even though we didnt share all our personal stuffs but i guess we always count on each other to get things done. there's no need to worry will he do these on time anot, will he remember , etc. but can always trust them and everything will eventually falls in place.

Now this is realli the last stride in Poly. If i dun study i will not have the chance to for 2 years. haha i'll be bald and will be marching everyday -.- then that's another chapter of my life.

Crap i thought i wanted a short entry. haha guess im long winded. wooo my dad just gave me $100 bucks for nothing again~ sian. i everytimem feel quite irritated when he gives me extra $. dunno why oso. just dun like to get alot from them.

Im so fortunate compared to so many people. Though i might not have a family car. but im not poor either. my parents sacrifice so much working everyday. 1 year only take 10 days leave. wakes up 3 am in the morning and starts to work. Does nothing but work not for themselves but for me and my bro. some pple have extra money they will like go for holiday or whatsoever but my parents will just give to us without fail. and yes though i dun get a lot like some rich man son. But for a hawker's son i think im damn rich already.

Was in a cab 1 day and he ask me how much my dad gives me a month and i told him. and the man told me he onli gives his son 1/2 my amount. that when i feel so fortunate and now im getting extra money. ahhhh. Seeing them getting more and more haggard each day. i can't help but thank God that He had given them to me. This is the best way to explain wad's love about. i love my family.

Singapore idol dreams...

2006-02-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

Singapore Idol is over for me... sigh.. super sad. anyway.. if you all want to hear wad's going on in my 2 days of sigapore idol auditions den continue ba.. if not u all can go visit other blogs already. hee cos i'll go on and on and keep complaining.

SINGAPORE IDOL

8AM must report. But i woke up at er 11+? ahha reach there at around 1 pm and met my secondary band friend. She plays the clarinet.. anyway, yea. when we reachthere it's like alot of pple la.. and we are like the last row -.- the weather is hot and yea irritating.. we have to like queue under the sun. dumb. waited till like around 4+ den Gurmit Singh came and announce that last audition will be at 8pm. the rest just continue to queue to register.. yep. so keep queueing lor. more pple add on to the queue. So we kept chatting lar and keep making friends there. Every1 there is like smoking there. and i MEAN EVERY1. 8 out of 10 la.. i'm like heavy 2nd hand smoker. i sure die earlier lah. i rather smoke. Yep so long nv smoke le...

We see so many people coming and many leaving the queue. hmm Queue moved damn slow.. and YES DAMN SLOW!!!! haha.. but now come to think of it i didnt regret my choice of joining. if given the same chance, yea, i'll go. it's fun in some ways. and the people there are really cool. Though 80% are smokers. i dun hate smokers, cos i was once like them.. i grew up associating with these kind of poepl.. im street wise. learn everything by trying.. and mixing around with people of good and bad.

So yea.. queue moved and i fianlly registered.. cant believed it.. i registered at around like 8. didnt realli take notice. time at tt moment dun seem to exist. cos waiting was my life then. So we were told that we will be given the priviledge to like "cut" the queue the nxt day lah.

So yep.. i turned up at 12noon as told.. yep every1 is there ahah. the same people. same order.. come to think of it. seems like i have known them like forever. lol. like at least know them for 2 yrs? keep chatting lah.. The queue today moved super fast today compared to ytd. dunno why oso. yep. chat chat chat chat chat.. den is our turn already. started to paste the super big number tag on the chest area.. it's like super obsene can. all the gals are like pressing their breasts like they nv press before lah.. super funny. then, it's super difficult for them to make it like nice cos it's like super uneven. den when they sit down. the whole thing becomes crumpled badly.. den to adjust they keep pressing.. hilarous. My fren wore and tube. so yea. worst.

so yep. we were brief under a tent 1st and before i walk into the tent A FREAKING CROW SHIT ON MY SHIRT AHHHHH CURSE UR BALLS!!!! so all the contestants i knew all help to clean my shirt lol and it's as gd as new.. thx guys. started to walk to into cineleisure. every1 is looking. it's so fun like as if we were already idols. =) camera crews all following. and we even had "personel lifts" (they enclosed the area only for us) how cool is it ah. the auditions is held in cinemas. so yea we were seated outside. and yes.. feel so shiok again. cos there's like 4 spot lights shining at the whole area when it's already so bright. hee. then waited for our turn to sing. THIS IS THE FASTEST PART LA. cos we need not sing the whole song.. so every 1 onli like choose 1 verse and chorus. so it's like super fast.. 1 person around 2 mins.. so it's like in out in out. the nxt thing i know it's me.. and i started walking in. The stage is super bright with millions of spot light. and the judges were behind and too dark as they are sitting behind the spotlights. 1 super big camera in front of you. LOL.

judges: HI
Me: Hi, im roy and im here to sing ghost of you by BBMAK.
judge 1 : ok BBMAK..
judge 2 : what you and me (talk to judge 1)
me : Ghost.
judge 2 : Ghost?

----silence---

so yea i started singing.. freak she dun even know wad is the song lah. sucker. as if i sing well she knows like that. freak shit. GO AND DIE LA. arrgghhh. so yea.. after that we were brought to the results area and yep. i was uper down. sigh.. got a feeling i'll get eliminated. cos 1. the judge dunno my song. 2. all the people i got to know there 2 were from VOCAL SCHOOL. 1 joined the malay idol show.. wad anugarah or what. sry dunno the spelling and he got quite far in if im not wrong. and some sing for pubs.. and me? sing in my toilet only lor while bathing. and my fren join season 1 SI and she got in 2 auditions if im not wrong. sian. so yea.. i think when i sing after them im like lousy? lol 3. i suck..

so yea.. left the place super sadly.. that's the end of my idol road... lol hang ard for a while and see those vocal sch guys holding the singapore idol paper.. i'm like f********* lol hmm.. nvm.. every1 went out to me.. im so sad.. and did i smoke? ahha it's for you to guess.. =)

that's all lar.. went to city link and collect my mum's b day cake. yep.. im back to me.. just a moment of fame.. my nick is cool. 1 min of fame. a few mins of disappointment but a lifetime of fufilment..

Everyone has a dream.. mine is to sing to a crowd. i didn't manage to sing to a crowd but i sang to 5 strangers. and im proud of myself.. the application form asked what is your greatest achievement to date? i wrote is to have the courage to join Singapore Idol. cos not everyone has the courage and yes i did it.cos i always dun have the courage to do something "loud" Finally i did something for myself. This is my dream.

ps: want to thank Der and Lydia for coming down to support me.. though it's a while but yea.. helps alot. My bro came too but yea he dunno i have a blog.

Shivers....

2006-02-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Singapore idol auditions in just a few hours time la... help.. i really dun dare to go lar. wa lao.

There are two kinds of people la.. just like the bilbe says. people who will pull you down and pple who will encourage you. In times like this, i saw this two. pple discourage me and pple who encourage me. though they might be joking but they dunno how much it means actually. im glad that Glenn called me. didnt know he actually remembered.Kah yan was at the backgrd. haha.thx pals.

dunno wad to blog and dunno wad to do.. im just too scared to do anything. sigh. i dun think i can get in the sudition.. cos i have stage fright.. cant perform .. hmm.. dun think i can sing properly.. sian.

1st Feb 2006

2006-02-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

School have been total boredom now. I dunno why but it seems pointless to go school. I'm not listening in class. Thinking if the 3 reports i have to hand in makes my life worst. Got 1 must have at least 60-70 pages. How the heck can i do that -.-

Sha and zac went back to aussie alr.. sigh. guess it will be damn weird without them. The youth will look small again. Went to the airport to send them off. So many people went =). Almost the whole youth. Thx for the ride Der. it'd be better if u send me home nxt time ahhahahahas. The gals cried.. hmm. Silly gals. They will be back soon la.. er think happy thoughts.

Went out with lydia again.. ahha she is getting a lil out of hand nowadays. Anw she was constantly "suan" by me the whole day =P . She did so mani embarrassing things la. like scream right in front of a strangers face la... like a 15 cm ruler distance hahas. den whole day hide behind me.. We were walkin all ard suntec and marina la. no movies to watch. LLydia was sweet enough to buy me 2 presents. i was realli kidding actually. wannted to treat her dinner in return but she dun want. dunno why oso. -.- Tab joined us.. and yep havoc.. ahha we played arcade la.. was realli fun. and they liek screamed non stop haha. they 2 vs me oso lose sigh.. what to say. I'm too gd! =))))

Lyd say i didn't blog enough.. =( im like trying rite. better den last time 2 months once. 11th Feb is like drawing near. HOW HOW HOW. shoud i or should i not.. ahhhhh.
i realli think i can't realli sing la. sianz. dunno wad song also. how...

25th Jan 2006

2006-01-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

YAY CNY IS COMING. It's really like round the corner. Red packets and more red packets. Hope i win more $$ too =).

Had steamboat that day with the youths. IM NOT FULL LA, and no 1 wanna have supper with me -.- we had fun la. Then all of us went to eat ice cream at macs. Fellowship was gd.

sian i still haven decide whether i should or not. hmm got my papers back.. failed 1.. sian.. only i fail la. totally no mood. cos every1 was like fail liao fail liao den like all pass 60 and above but i fail like shit. Are humans born to lie, to sin.

moody and stuffs. like usual.. God pls guide me through this misty path

19th jan 2006

2006-01-19T20:14:00.000+08:00

sian.. now watching american idol... reminds me of singapore's idol. I want to join but i have no courage AT ALL. i'm scared they will like categorise me in the joker grp, and show my clip for pple to laugh.

this few days is tiring. cos i have to be in sch from 9am to 5pm. cos of our 3rd yr's final year project. so bored. just wish no 1 will come and see my project, so i can slack more.

Just realised how dumb lydia can get. cos she asked whether must she deal with the shell when she is eating soft shell crab -.- hee stupid dumbo.

got not much to say today la.. i have things to do will blog again =)

12th Jan 2006

2006-01-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

oops. did i mention blogging more often? lol i fell aslp almost every night while doing somthing. woke up late and rush to sch. this is my life ..

I got back 2 papers back. Didn't scored very well (expected) as i didnt study much la, so can't blame anyone except myself. yep. School is boring as usual to me and i'm constantly stressed by the FYP project. Nothing is done but i have no motivation to do it, or perhaps do anything related to studies.

I think i realli need help. I have lost focus on everything. What's wrong with my life? I'm kind of living my life cos i'm alive? My life is so dry all of a sudden. Guess i haven been doing my QT. sigh. Time to get started again and get myself back to track. Strayed away from everything for quite awhile. STUPID SATAN, GET LOST YOU MORON.

Oh next week is Spinnovex ( an exhibition for everyone's fyp porjects). So it's a busy week for me cos i have to rush my project as i have lots of things to do. MOTIVATION PLEASE!

I got a new phone. Thanks bro. He bought for me =) yeah. i got the w 800i. the sony ericsson walkman phone. it's like a mp3(512mb) and a 2 mega pix cam. woot. They phone not bad la. almost same as my previous phone just that got a better cam and better mp3. =) The design is more for for youngsters. cos it's like bright orange.. but who cares. im young.. i'm a youngster =P *winks

09 Jan 2006

2006-01-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Woah! A new year have arrived =) hmmm. Ihaven't been blogging for a month. Doesn't matter cos not many people read through my blog. it's just a place where i record stuffs cos i have a realli bad memory. Many things have happened but i cant remember much la so many things e.g caroling, christmas concert, stayed overnight in church twice blah blah.. too many to list. Perhaps browsing through my church friends' blogs might help =)

Exams are like finally over and i'm gonna fail like all.. and 1 of them i'll do freaking badly cos i fell aslp b4 i started studying and woke up 30 mins b4 the test. didn't even have time to read through. whatever.

Exams over so what. Next week is like freaking Spinovex - An exhibition for all 3rd yr final projects. and guess what. my team haven even finish the project anad we have to present nxt week? i have yet to buy my shirt and pants.

Suddenly time seems to pass so fast.. it seems like ytd im still in sec sch slacking and having fun with my buddies.. Now im gonna graduate and enter army soon. wee Is it good or is it bad?

Actually schooling is fun but when it comes to projects and exams. it SUCK. yea.. come to think of it, i have to rush my project by this week -.- and my final exam is coming. walao. Most stressful period of poly life.

I think i have to make a point of blogging.. my memory is getting from bad to worst. i have to jot everything down here.. or else will be like now.. cannot recall what realli happen within this month.

1st Dec

2005-12-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

Woah~ So fast December liao.. so tired now it's 1 am and i'm here ahha.. just wanna write my song here... to remind every1 that you're nv alone. Cos God and ur family/ friends are always there.

Sometimes i take for granted
That He died for me
Sometimes I only remeber
When I am in need

Now I'm praying
For You to forgive me
I pray that You will give me strength
To flee from my sins

Lord, forgive me
All that i want
Is to be with You
So Lord take my hand
And walk with me

You love brings me peace
In the midst of life's storm
Your love melts away
Tension, worry and strain

In times of sorrow
You are always there
To drive away
The darkness in my heart

Lord, stand by me
All that I want
Is to be with You
So lord take my hand
And walk with me.

26 Nov '05

2005-11-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

hohos.. look at the gap between this post and my previous. like 10 yrs? Didn't feel like blogging, didn't know why too.

today was forced to go trekking with the church pple -.- it's a 15km route la.. lyd woke me up.. she was gentle for the 1st time( i guess cos she just woke up -- which is confirm by joce ) haha. den came the thunderous joce screaming into the phone.arrghh stupid. Anyway i took a cab there and WOAH~ so mani pple ahha. Jogged with Joce for super long.. think 5 km am i rite? i dunno den we walk run walk run.. tiring but quite fun actually. Every1 were tired after the walk ahah dunno they enjoyed it anot.

Poor lydia cried when she cross the treetop bridge.. cos she is scared of heights. ahha poor gal.. tried to comfort her that its nth shameful nor embarrassing. =) dunno got help her anot. *shrugs*

Went to joce house to bathed and played some card games and we slept for a while too and found out several disgusting and sweet things abt the 2 sisters haha. SHall just say abt the sweet things. Joce ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING NICE TODAY!. Like once in a year? haha she got me a blanket IMMEDIATELY when i said i was cold haha.

When im sleeping Joce painted my toe nails ahha. i knew but i didnt resist. lazy. okie and its super ugly la.. and she even drew on my feet ahah. and yep here comes Lydia. she came and remove the paints. ahah.

Dinner with Tabitha cos Joce tricked me.. in the end she have to go dinner with her family -.- . Ate and went home cos i need to shit. Can onli shit happily at home haha.

boredom

2005-10-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

Now doing nothing... its the stupid time of the day again, i hate 3-5 o'clock. It's like out of no where. waiting for the time to pass faster so that i can go play tennis--- it's still vvvv long. Char is as usual sleeping.. zzz left me here alone. Her lap top so hard to use.. maybe is all laptops are hard to use.

Heard from my fren that my lecturere is going to see our project on Monday and guess wad.. we are onli 50 % done.. we are liek so dead ... sigh. Nothing seems to work.. and we are suppose to show him? show him nth ah. No wonder its called deadline.. cos every1 will die if nth works or is done.

That day dreamt that i'm driving my car to a chalet to meet my frens. sigh. in the end woke up felt super sianz ccos its over. Back to reality.

i wanna go university but keep on playing and didn't study. Should work on time management. now wanan study already its too late. sigh. cos my results too lousy likao. even if i get all distinction for my last sem. it cant help me get into a local U. Regret...

k la stop here. damn sianz. better wake her up.

Look ahead...

2005-10-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

Learnt a lesson today: 99% of the things that happen in your life is unfair.

She is staying overnight in a chalet with him again. It's just 1/2 a yr and it's the forth time perhaps? However, this time i think its really no link? Cos the chalet is organised by his club and not hers. I totally see no point in why she need to go.Need 1 more majong player? haha wow the club have hundreds over members why you lol.. not your club right, Char.

After blogging this sure quarrel again cos she will say why must you tell the whole world blah blah blah~. Makes a lil sense but if its like tt what are blogs for whn you can't blog what you feel. Does it make sense? If an author write something tt might offend some 1 means he cant write a book anymore?

I'm not trying to make a bad guy.. Yep he might be good i don't know. But i know he is gd to you as u seem to like him alot. Good for you, Bad for me. That's how things work. There's pros and cons.

Sigh~

My fyp has no progress. deadline is this freaking thursday. Nothing is done when EVERYONE finish already. Freaking stress. No mood to do anything.

Everything is unfair.God is fair.. no 1 loves me except God and my family? who wants to love me...

Singing frenzy

2005-10-17T12:09:00.001+08:00

Majesty (here I am) is a gd song. Fellow brothers and sisters go listen =).

16th Oct

2005-10-16T18:35:00.000+08:00

Hmmm here again. Sometimes i hope i can go army now.. maybe i can grow up faster.. maybe i can forget some things.. or perhaps avoid knowing things. you all can call it escaping from reality. Hah.

So tired to smile to every1.. so tired to hide.

I can only find rest in You.

16th Oct

2005-10-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

Poly sucks everything sucks haha. Though having holidays now but have to go sch like everyday to rush the damn FYP(final yr proj). the death line is like er end of this month? and my team only like finished 10% wth. It's damn difficult to do and no help is given. sigh~

So sianz.. found out mani thing through blogs. Guessed i get very fed up with dumb pple who play " bf & gf " games. ahha not tgd but call each other dear and darlings. gets on my nerve. Grow up man. woo him/her den call la. lol.

Got to realised 1 more weakness of mine while talking to God. He made me realised tt I i'm freaking lousy in letting go. Hmm. this few days i can listen to church songs the whole morning =) kind of provides me peace and joy.. Parents work so i can blast the whole house haha. Can't seem to write my second song. hmm does mood affects your ablility or capability?

Hahah i took like 1 hr to blog this la.. cos im singing lol. Christian song rocks. It's not cos of the melody, not the instruments.. its the lyrics.. that makes a christian song.

wooo now going out liao.. Grandpa's birthday. hmmm =) Food i'm coming

26th Sept

2005-09-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys, long time nv blog... think v sian la.. stupid exams. lame. i think exams is the stupidiest thing human came up with to a certain extent. sigh dont think i did well.. today had a paper. don't even know how to do la. but no choice cos i studied onli er 4 hrs b4 the exam? haha yesterday went k box with joce, der, caleb and char. yea had fun at the end where every1 is so sianz and tired and we did stupid things and sang stupid songs like under the sea etc.

i finished my christian song alr.. wahahahahahahha muahhahahaha excited.. weee i liked it personally..( who doesn't like their own composed song). hmm dunno its nice anot to others haha. *shrugs*

Been moody and depressed lately. but its ok. God is my shelter. im tired wanna slp alr.. haha. tmr will be better =) last exams on thurs whoooo.. den final yr proj =.= sianz. poly sucks i wanna go army..

7th Sept

2005-09-07T19:59:00.000+08:00

weee so fast its September. having exams like in 2 more weeks and i still haven start yet. hmmm this sem totally no mood. am i too affected by what's going on in my life? Pray tt He will guide me.

Played badminton today was ok lar.. tired and smelly. what's worse was i smash myself. ok that's dumb but who cares. i was doing a smash den the racket slip and hit my body hard. even my opponents can hear the sound. hmmm it hit the point where the ribs stops. *pain*. the spot turn red immediately.

Found that my mum is getting cuter each day haha. Suddenly recieve a msg from here. she sad she just had a fall. injured her knee arm and mouth. i was like wth?!?!? called her immediately she said she was fine. she said she " si jiao chao tian" haha. she came home and yep she is fine.

Got so tired of everything now. dunno what am i doing. what am i looking for. i feel so stagnant.
hmmm like as if i dont have anything to do when i have a lot. hmm at least now i'm making songs thats why its better or else i feel so empty.

i wanna play tennis

29th Aug

2005-08-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

Indescribable. No one know what His plans are. No 1 can fully comprehend Him. hmm But know tt He places the best for us to grow.

Something cute happen today. was using the com den hear my mum scream for me.. i ran to the kitchen and found out she super-glued herself. so cute. She is so frightened. I panicked. I asked her to change and wanted to bring her to the doctor. she refused. Soi called my cousin who is a nurse and ask for solutions. So i used oil on my mum. tinner. den use plastic fork to 'saw'. but my mum say its painful.. den after so long.. 30 mins. she use her nails to like dig push pull den ok alr -.-

My mum thanked me. I felt weird. i'll do anything for my parents and i'll do it not for the thank you.. just feel so weird. hmm why must be so ke qi.

Did my final yr project today.. today did a lil only.. and what we did. did not work. great. whatever. Projects are dumb. Must start a petition to end all project work.. and maybe exams.. ahah. hmm maybe not.. if its like that, then what for study.

I'm so tired today dunno why.. i think i go rest. cya =)

20th August

2005-08-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

i decided not to close my blog.. i don't care anyway.. i'll blog as and when i like.. i can blog wadeva i want.. who cares whether if any1 reads =) its just me myself and I.
this is a place i can shout my stuffs out, a place to keep my shitty feelings, my sorrows and *poof*. go out with a smile again. I just want to bring pple joy.. =) why pull a long face hmm. go home den pull lor.

Every 1 has their problems. why do you need to burden them? haha so i put my sorrows at home and go out with a smile. perhaps its not the 'real' you but i dunno.

God has given me a big big big exam. and i kept failing it! arrgh freak. i just can't let it go. but i MUST! im just hurting myself. I just cant stand him. Fortunately, God changed me. Or else i'll beat the hell out of him.

Hey dude, if you are reading. i know you have been holding hands often with char and talk on the phone almost every night. can see you are making a move. treat her well ya? yep i don't like you. So you don't have to like me either. Try to know her more. She has alot of weird habits, weird likings etc[alot]. Take care of her. k nth to say to you bye.

Char is a great gal. She is cute, pretty. =). She is sweet sometimes but she can be mean at times. She is frank and freaking straight forward, people who don't know her will be offended sometimes.She is actually a child in disguise, like a small gal. At times, im quite worried for her. She is often clumsy and careless. She is a direction idiot. She loves to sing. She loves nachos. still got so many more. lazy to state. and why am i stating haha. lalala~

i feel so silly. Starting of her poly. she say she has a 'bf' in class. i was jealous but i didn't want to spoil her fun. so i smiled and let her be. Sometimes i joke with her "where's ur bf?" "meeting your bf ah?" in the end... ahha she fell for him. What to do? Nothing.

Just remember i haven eat yet.. the whole day.. played 6 hr badminton some more. I'm still alive. maybe eat supper later.

i found that i'm actually an introvert. i love to be at home i love to be alone. hmm. I find that alot of pple sont know me. Is it im hiding the real me? really few people know me well haha. wooot! i just woke up. i seemed to see alot of things clearly.. im wasting sooo much time. i've neglected my friends so much. damn.

God thanks for this test. i know I'll grow and learn from this lesson. I'll pass it 1 day. i know I've been wasting time in sadness. I love you Lord =) Thank you for carrying me during my difficult times.

29th July

2005-07-30T09:55:00.000+08:00

had driving today.. hmm everythings is gd.. just that im late. sigh yep. rush out of my house after i gel my hair up. hmmm took out my ring and forgot to wear back.. felt weird the whole day. now i know why.. its a sign hmm.

anyway, im thinking of closing my blog. No one is reading and i think its useless as you can't blog what you feel out as there's so much to care about. u might aggitate, depress, ruin other's reputation, etc.

To char: Hey, im sorry about walkin away yesterday suddenly. i wanted to tell you im happy for you. But i couldn't hold my tear any longer and i dun wan you to see that. Remember I'm happy as long as u are. Actually i knew both of you will hold hands yesterday, had a feeling. and im right. My "six sense" nv fails me. All these while I'm just clinging on to a hope that i know will vanish someday. Just hoping it will last longer. But some how know the days are short as i see you two progress. Talking on the phone almost everyday, go out,etc. i know is a sooner or later thing. hmm It's ok. I'll be fine after awhile. Fell aslp yesterday quite early i guess.. didn't feel like doing anything, cried myself to sleep. I'll be there for you if u need me =) that's what are friends for. Thanks for all the good memories and experiences. It's all memories now. hmm, so wasted. Broke up before my birthday. =) but thanks for celebrating for me. Enjoyed my birthday. Seems like you were mine.whahaha dumb -.- .Hmmm, it's over. thanks. Take care, i hope he will.

14th July

2005-07-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm so so long nv blog... seriously i don't know wad to blog abt. cos somethings are so personal.. and not suitable to blog it out.. sometimes not everything need to be sad.. keeping it in ur heart is sweet and warm.. =)

was with char just now.. met her aft schol. wait for her so long at the station. the weather is a killer.. was sweating. hmm ok we proceeding to ang mo kio cos we are going to her grandma's place to have dinner and see her new born cousin. so we dropped by a departmental store and bought stuffs for the baby ( male ). bought a bip, cap and a rubber ducky.. the rubber ducky is very special.. cos if the water is too hot for the baby to bathe in.. a word HOT will be shown.

went there played with the baby.. ate, watch tv and talk . den send her home.. and end of the day! wahaha enjoyed myself so much.. kind of love kids. =P

recently got the army letter -.- sian... its just to inform me to book an appointment for medical check up.. all my classmates got it too.. and yrp its connfirmed tt they will chk the whole body -.- gay checkers.. lol.wadeva nth scary anw. army soon~ sigh~ 2 yrs NS lar.. national slavery.

oh ya.. i made a donation a few weeks ago. den realised the 1st prize is a car! i wan a car.. so pray for me. =) wahha jk. hmm my exams is arriving soon.. 2 more weeks. den now have alot of lab tests and presentation. stress..

k think i'll stop her.. so tired.. wanna slp. cya!

2nd July

2005-07-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

hmm mnow is 1231... its not my birthday liao.. hmmm enjoyed myself today. wahha its my BIRTHDAY.. ahha.. hmmm im older.. i guess i have to enjoy my last "teen" yr.. next yr will be 20 -.-. sianz.. become a 2 in front la.. not more 1

hmmm last night... at 12 midnight. my handphone was flooded.. hmm was quite surprised some ppl actually remembered =) hmm went to church for band prac.. and played a lil table tennis.. so boring.. play with bra so easy.. he is damn lousy in it.. ahha.. char also can win him.

hmmm den went home.. cos i have a birthday dinner with my frens.. invited them over to my house. My mom was great.. cooked so much and so nice.. thx mom.. love her.. and she kissed me too haha.. hmmm the food is nice.. hmm its a let me see.. its a dunno 5 or 6 course dinner... ahha.. imagine 6 dishes for u.. woah~ supermom! haha. she even made ice cream..(note: she made!) haha. so nice.. and my b dae cake is chocolate mint.. nice..

ok.. best part.. when takin photo... my cake looks like it caught fire.. wahha... cos got too mani candles.. ( i'm not old.. just alot of candles. period) and yep.. we take foto till the candles almost burn finish... den we sang birthday song like super fast.. made a wish and i blow the candles.. and guess wad.. onli 2 candles remained ahha. oh.. anyway the "happy birthday" sign caught fire to... was so chaotic ahha.

thx guys for putting aside ur stuffs and celebrate my dinner thx. =) and wad a pleasant surprise.. i love my frens.

29th june

2005-06-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

hmm im dying... played almost 4 hrs of badminton.. den almost 2 hrs of soccer.. whole body full of injuries.. sigh~ hmm nth to blog these few days lar.. hmm

tmr going out with eh max and yanling.. hope its fun =) ahah. got alot of catching up to do.
k la.. nth to say liao.. cos everyday stone at home.. haha. bye.. got things den blog

23th june

2005-06-23T18:06:00.001+08:00

i was angry with him in the 1st place.. in the end i didnt alr.. cos i know its ok as nth happen... im not guilty wad.. tts why i still talk to him. yep so im not guilty.. im not in the wrong. i hurt u? why... cos i talk to my fren? ahha wad a great joke.. being attached means i cannot talk cannot sms cannot msn any female person? wads more we are frens now wad. u said u wanna have a break.. xplore more things.. and give each other space.. and more time with frens.. ok i gave u space.. so why i go talk to my frens u are making such a big fuss?

"You made a big hoo haa over me talking on the phone after you went to sleep. Now what, you're worse! " adapted frm ur blog

i'm worst? wahahah wad did i do... i just talk to her.. and its not casual talk... i cannot say out but we did not talk cock like wad u doing.. tmr where u going.. NO! so why am i worse?tell me la! i didn't do anything that is immoral or wad...

17th june

2005-06-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. how i wished i told her i wanna go skating with her.. nvmm she didn't press so i didnt say i wanan go.. nvm.. =) she is having fun with her frens and her"boy friend" haha..

its ok realli... since we both agreed tt we can keep a look out for partners.. haha.. she has been going out with frens... hmm wad am i doing.. ahha im still here waiting? hmmm time to go out too... lol i just realised when im attached.. i have completely forgotten my frens!! wooo IM BACK GUYS!!! haha time to ask them out.. cya =)

15th june

2005-06-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

we broke up.

she is tired of maintaining a r/s. she says she is too immature to handle it...she says she still loves me but we shouldnt be tied down so fast.and we have a long way to go and many things might change.. like my army all these.. den aft tt den decide whether we are still gd 4 each other.

dunno lar.. my mind is blank im so confused.. shrugs.. but i think aft my ns is 3 -4 yrs down the road.. and i dun think there'll be a high possibility.. cos frm sec to poly one's character will change.. and poly to university will too.. i just chances are slim.. but nvm.. =)

God has better plans.. we are still close frens!

wooo.. just realised after she talk to joce she is ok alr.. and wanna get backk.. i think i nid a break.. cant take all these everytime.. humans get hurt..

9th june

2005-06-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey... back frm youth camp. hee.. so much things to say but dunno how to type it out... guys are like tt.. not like gals so gd at blogging... the camp is fun.. its not tt tiring.. its kind of slack.. haha but i guessed it turned out gd.. the youths a "finally" bonding... dunno who will be reading my blog... but i wanna ask the youths is this gonna last? or will it be a hi bye aft church nxt week? will u all still eat tgd or even hang out for a while or say im going out with blah blah... i nid to do this.. b lah blah... is this gonna last?

we played lots of games... they were gd.. bond us tgd.. i got to know the youths better. ahah... for 3 night the youths organised their own freeze and melt... haha.. tiring.. played till soo late. all the running drains the energy we had left for each day.. haha.. saarah joined us finally but so poor thing.. she bang onto Gavin... den she got a lump on her head.. like a 'luo han yu' ahha.. poor gal.. oh... sarah brought a fren.. quite sporting.. haha.. but she cannot get to slp the 2nd night ahha.. cos there wasnt any wind.. oh we were camping in tents.. =)
we kayaked too.. haha.. bra was sitting in front of me.. haha i accidentally smack his head with my oar. ahha.. the feeling is sososos shiok.. haha now the whole church is saying sad and are u dumb.. haha.. so fun..
got a game.. we have to wrap 1 of our team mate inmt o a mummy with toilet paper.. haha... poor lyd.. she requested bigger boobs ahha.. say put more toilet paper -.- ahha.. anyway for the mummy fight.. .she won.. whahaha.. she is so vicious.. continuous attack.=) great job team

sermons no comments... thank you to my worship committee... hee.. thx for helping and offering ur service... hee.. darn.. owe tab and lyd ice cream... aarrgghh~

spend lil time with Char.. both of us just wanted to bond more with the rest =) ahha. k lar... dunno wad to say liao.. hee.. just wanna ask the youths a question again... is this gonna last? ... or is it a wow so fun.. we are so close.. got closer... bonding.. den nxt week back to square 1.. and hi bye.. lunch dun eat tgd.. no hanging out aft church.. everyting dun have..

cya.. love ya guys..

24th May

2005-05-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

hi guys... going to tell u all the most unlucky thing tt happen to me in my whole life?

ok last fri after my tennis i took a cab down to pasir ris ro have my class chalet.. within like 5 mins.. 3/4 of my toe nail was torn apart from my skin.. thanks to my classmate...i use like half a roll of toilet paper lar.. and all is soaked with my blood and it hurts like hell ahah.i mms char the pic of my bloody toe and the toilet paper tt were soaked w/ my blood and after a few sec my fone rang.. and she was so worried.. =P *oops* i went to washed it after i gathered my courage ahah... ok i think the nxt block oso can hear me scream =P its unbearable..

nevertheless, i continued playing... tolerated the pain till i slpt... we played poker, board games, xbox till super late... the nxt day we went wild wild wet. Yep u nv see wrongly.. i went with my frens.. cos all of them went.. if i dun go i'll be stoning in the chalet doing nth lar... so i went too... wooo the moment i step into the water..ok lar.. no nid to say u all shld know.. just tolerated... after a while i think ok liao. den while playing the things... 2 of my frens kicked my toe la.. sigh~ bleed lor... oh ya.. I LOST MY RING! sigh... this weekend a lil stupid.. the place is small lar... play awhile den nth to play liao.. will not reccomend ppl to go lar.. but overall ok lar..

back to the chalet chk out my toe.. woooh.. its all clean man... cos soak so long.. i can realli see wads happening... its a realli deep cut.. like a valley... all the way in.. quite cool~ lata i bathe = not cool.. haha.. den bbq ate till so full... sianz... and i slpt early.. cos the nxt day i got church.. so woke up super early lor.. and went off... i got a burger on the way. sianz. Here comes the "suay" part again!!! I and my church fren who hapeen to be in the same church as me.. we were walkin across the carpark.. den "BANG" something freakin heavy hit my head... its the carpark barrier... u know u have to pay den the barrier raise up.. and it falls straight down after that... and it landed on my head lar... freak. ITS FREAKING HEAVY!!!! the whole day my head is giddy and pain... i wanted to see doc lar.. but i think waste of money.. if got bloddclot den die lor.. jusr pray tt i'll be fine =) so sianz.. k alr.. now dying... toe hurts... head hurts..

16th may

2005-05-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

Char is nagging me again~ to blog.. said tt ive been blogging for a long time bah~

haix.. its so difficult to live w/o $$.. not say cannot.. just difficult.. dunno wads with me or wad im doing.. i walsys use up my allowance on the 3rd day.. den i have to like withdraw and now my bank is like 3 digit.. aarrrghhhh... i wan $$. i always wanan save but dunno why keep decreasing.. dunno wad to do. shrugs.. have a plan lar.. just eat bread everyday lor... Char scolded me.. but she will not noe of i hide whahahahaha.*evil* =P

tmr going to have my driving lessons again~ when can i complete it.. -rolls eyes- im finishing my practical alr.. can drive like a breeze le.. but i have pass my final theory test -.- ahha.. have to wait till nxt month.. thats the earliest date. freak!

got my time table... sigh~ year 3 laio.. so fast.. seems like yr 1 ytd.. shrugs.. time just goes on.. it's either u run fast with it or u are left behind.. aha.. my time table is ok lar.. dun ask too much.. not bad lor =) i think i wanna give it all leh.. or else very hard to get a job.. without degree.. haha. MUST WORK HARD... same goes to u guys =) .

4th May

2005-05-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

hey pple.. i haven't been blogging for super long.. haha. been busy or rather lazy lately. bah~

tmr my results will be out.. how?!?!?! going to retain.. pray for me guys... God pls ans my prayers.. =) i dun wanan retain... haha anw met Char just now after my driving.. went IKEA to get some stuffs.. den shopped ard at orchard and met my parents for dinner.. hee the funni thing is tt.. pple are looking at my baby.. and they smiled. i find it weird.. till!!! ahah i notice there's something on her back! hee. there's a lil bird shit on her back(she wore spagetti). poor baby.. muackx. i cleaned it off.. and stroke her hair.. didnt make fun of her..

dunno wad's dear doing now.. she nv reply my msg.. going to call her now.. =) cya

19th April

2005-04-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

yo pple.. hmmm ytd went to the ZOO with char .. hee took so mani pics.. and i looks so ugly in all.. ahah.. we took pics with snakes, orang utans blah blah... hmm.. think char is going to upload some pics i guess.. go her blog and see some other day lor. cos i dunno how to.. or perhaps im too lazy to learn when she teaches me =P

Char was so pretty ytd =) not tt she isnt pretty other days.. just prettier? hee.. anw.. she enjoyed herself i gues ahaha.. she is so obessed with the animals.. for the past months she has been pestering me to go and when i agreed. guess wad! she went online to get info for our trip.. she printed out the timings of the animal shows.. all the programs all the feeding times.. check out the price of rides.. the entrace fee.. the $$ for takin pics with animals. hais.. see her so excited ah.. realli nth to say.. naughty gal.. makes me heart melt.

hmmm we went to all the animal shows... went almost all the morning feeding sessions.. the animals there are all so well train.. so so cute.. ahah. i realli dunno how to say.. but pple.. if u all are free go!!! go the zoo.. its realli interesting and fun? realli.. u will nv regret.. but u must watch all the shows and go for the feeding sessions.. cannot be described... =)

ok... it rained a lil when we are there.. and we had lunch 1st and see how lor... we ate at the restaurant there called "jungle fare" haha.. we didnt eat at the "food court" cos it dun look nice... anw the restaurant is nice..the ambience is perfect =) hee...

realli enjoyed myself there.. enjoyed her company =)

love her...

miss her..

6th april..

2005-04-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

WOOOO... i think i super long nv blog le... seems like a year to me.. guess im realli too busy.. anw no 1 reads wad.. haha so it makes no diff.. sigh.. dunno wad to say leh.. dun feel like bloggin everything out.. cos tt will be like 100 pages? haha. hmmmm im now having my Final yr exam sianz... 1st paper is Maths.. u may think its easy.. but the maths im learning is realli 10 times more difficult den Amaths? sigh.. im going to fail it cos all the qns i realli got no idea.. left 3 qns blank... sigh.. im so dead. think im gonna retain.. going to get smack by my parents.. sigh... all the other subs i oso dunno.. how... so lil time to study... help!??! i hope iwill not still be yr 2 nxt yr. God ans my prayers. this sunday going to play guitar for the whole church again... sigh.. last time onli play for the cell grp... now church.. heavy responsibility... My fren, Glenn going cambodia.. pray tt he will return safetly. haah hey dude if u are reading this.. auto abit ah.. u know.. presents?? *hints* met Char just now.. ate thai express.. seems like i've been pronounced bankrupt every week.. ahha.. ate alr. went home.. nth much.. but its the company tt makes it great. hasn't seen Char for a while.. missed her.. sent her back.. but i didnt wanna leave haha.. stood outside her house for quite awhile. -delayed time- k.. i got to go... wish u guys all the best.. stay well.. cheers.

3rd March '05

2005-03-03T17:32:00.000+08:00

can some 1 tell me why pple repeats mistakes again and again when they know its wrong.. and hurt other pple. and den say sry and den do it again.

can some1 tell me where i can shout out everything without being heard. i couldnt just tell some frens. i must respect the other party too.. God why do u have to make us unhappy when we find some happiness. i know maybe is Your test for us.. i know its ur plan.. but y? to test whether we put You in our minds? aarghh. anw its for the best of us..

anger sadness disappointment vexed frustrated helpless hurt lost lost of faith... why are there so mani negative thoughts when there's onli so lil postive 1s? my heart is cold. are u going to warm it up.. and den freeze it again~ i dun wan tt feeling again~ are trusts suppose to be broken or shattered? forgive and forget... can i do tt? how?

u can choose but i cant. cos im in too deep.. my mind is whirling. my heart has stopped beating. are u going to make it work again? are u going to mend my heart?

dun say sry when u are going to do it again. just dun cos it will hurt even more. whaah im mad.. alalalal... i dunno wad im talkin abt.. think i go slp. haha. mood swings.. pms. wahahahah

i love u
do you?

31st jan..

2005-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

Our first year Anniversary

hmmm time passes fast!. Finally i yr with Char =) finally can call it anniversary. haha. she took off to go out with me.. but i still got to attend schol. fin at 2.. so met Char at 230 but she late. cos she talkin to her mum.. so i waited.. think she arrived at ard 3 =) nvm.. we went to catch a movie. so long nv watch movie liao. "Finding neverland" . ok the story is super boring and like jaw dropping at 1st.. but slower u'll understand and its ok lar the show. quite cheap some more cos its monday lol..

den we went shopping.. whaha we decided to buy each other something tt we can use for a long tim, practical and instead of multiple gifts. so we bought jeans-Levi's lol. =) we proceeded to have or dinner.. SUPER HUNGRY!! haaha pig me. hmm we dine at thai express. hee and den shop a lil lar.. see sports gear.. den headed home lor.. nth to do ma.. go home and spend time..

so we talked.. and digged each other's ear.. hee. we do tt every now and den =P. den went home lor.. hee.. miss dear.. happi anniversary my love =) may we continue growing in Him.

i know if i dun blog today , Char sure nag lol.. so blog lor =)

baby Char.. glad tt i have u by my side =) always there for me and making my life different(positively). i will continue to cherish wad i have and treasure our relationship. realli dunno wad to say all of a sudden.. but hope wad i've done the past yr give u a clear picture. hee love ya=) happi anniversary once again~ *hugs*

26th jan

2005-01-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

yo... long time nv blog.. think no time ba... either im playing games or im outside or im talkin on the fone with Char.

think no 1 reads my blog cos they know i will not blog.. but whaha.. i did blog now =) maybe i blog onli for Char to read.. but i guess she dun read my blog le.. cos i everytime nv blog. last time she read blogs will go to mine to chk whether got blog anot.. but i think now she nv alr.. cos i nv blog for like months.

I think Char doesnt like remember me tt often le.. maybe cos of work.. and she is starting to be obsess with shopping.. i dun mind.. realli.. she can shop all day long.. but at least she tell me 1st?
i called her so mani times after work.. and she didnt ans.. so i got realli worried.. and continued calling.. den i tot maybe she talkin to boss den i waited and den called again.. but still no ans.. den she finally ans... sigh..

i was like freaking worried.. so i scolded her stupid.. but she didnt know tt im worried.. and she says she is shopping with a guy.. so she just forgot me.. =) she does call me everytime after work.. maybe my position in her life changed? =) nvm as long as she is safe and happy im fine~

dunno when she will read this.. or perhaps.. ani1 to read...

1th jan

2005-01-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

sigh made Char sad and angry again~ was staying overnight at fren's house ytd lar.. i and some other pple are playing games. i didnt know she is angry with me playing games.. cos when i look at her she is doing things ma.. using the com, talking, private talks.. so i play lor... den when im not playing i went to check out on her talk to her.. but she didnt say anithing ma sigh... den i slpt at 3 or 4++ den she talk to me.. i remmebered she talk to me once.. but others when she mentioned i have totally no idea.

so when i woke up.. i talk to her she ignored me and faced the other side but when others talk to her she talk.. i help cover her with her jacket nicely.. she pulled it away.. sigh.. did wadever i can but she ignores la.. den after very long i "force" her to talk to me whahahahah!!! *evil* den she tell me lor.. cried in my shoulders.. sry baby.. but i did talk to u when im not playing.. but u think is tt when i waiting for my turn i look for entertainment(you) but tts not true.. if u talk to me i'll lor.. but u realli doing ur stuffs.. den when u talk to me i was too tired.. aiya.. my fault lar.. den once she raised her voice a little and said:" when u are sleeping he is the one who accompanied me!" when i ask why she talk to bryan and not me.. so wad can i do.. but to keep quiet..

i felt so stupid.. so worthless..perhaps.. *shrugs* when she needs me its always derick or bryan.. and nv me.. so why the freaking hell am i her bf. when i do nth but make her sad/angry all those.will some1 tell me.. do i deserve her???? btw no 1 reads my blog.. who cares.

happy 11th moniversary.. ironic ah.. its not happy.. Char sms me and told me she cried herself to 2005 -.- aiya.. actually i dun feel like saying ... just wanna say sry.. and games are not more impt den u.. but i know u will tell me yes.. u will argue with me.. den we will have another quarrel. the problems lies with me.. its me.. i dun feel like doing anithing.

cheers guys.. happi new yr.. all the best for the whole yr.. God bless and have a fruitful yr yea? =) dun treat ur bf/ gf as bad as i do =). cos tt realli hurts them. though it hurts u too.. but i rather to be hurt den she cries.. ahaha alala~~ tmr got street soccer.. no mood to play la. she like dun agree of me joining like tt by the way she talked just now..

do i deserve her...

i made a song for her.. but i think not singing to her animore alr lar.. she dun likes it.. but i think its the heart tt counts. hee dunno.. maybe its too silly.. ask me and i'll sing to u guys ahah provided i've the guitar.. or else i cannot find the tone..

all the best.. happy new yr.. hohoho. eh..

13th dec

2004-12-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm 1st day of sch.. so boring.. now i feel like going attachment.. at least its better den sitting there and listen to boring lectures.. help!!!

so sianz... every1 is going the church camp.. but im not.. got sch.. stupid dunno why they brought foward the schedule... starts in dec.. thx ah... sigh.. den baby have to leav eme for like 4 days? hai.. just wan her hugs now... but i know i cant have it.. shrugs. boring. miss Char so much.. think she dunno.. nvm..

oh ya.. Char n i bought a couple watch.. fossil brand. =) suppose to be like christmas present for each other lar.. =) so sianz.. nth to write lar.. she oso not reading.. miss ya .. i realli do = (

11th Dec

2004-12-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS!!! haha... haven been updating my blogs... realli no time.. cos of attachment.. work frm 11 to 8... yawns.. reach home at ard 9.. den bathe den slp.. haha.. so tired.. no time to use com too.. still got to shift house some more... now i have shifted to redhill liaoz..=) like my room... super small.. but i love small room.. cos its cosy to me.. den like big rooms.. like so lonely.. so empty. den shifted to this new building den found out tt there's no cable.. no internet.. so im like -.- den i quickly go sign up for singnet broadband.. wahah.. but had to wait for like 4 workin days lar.. den all in all like 1 week?!?! lol..

hmm sianz.. yay!!! got pay..hee.. finally something to be happy abt.. got more den im supposed to get lar.. hee =) yay.. hmm oh ya.. bought Char a new ring.. tt silly gal keep bugging(nicely) to buy for her.. haha cos i kind of promise to buy her after her o's lar... so yep.. bought for her lor.. hee surprised her lar .. when she watching tv at home.. den i cover her eyes from the back and gave her lor =). hope she likes it lar..

hmm tmr got carolling... whahah... think can see chick tmr... dumb silly chick. whaha going to have carolling practice at Char's house but guess wad she not at home.. she got work -.- sad. =(

school is starting soon... sigh. lol nvm lar.. better den attachment.. cos attachment cannot skip... sch can.. wHWHAHAHAH... den i wanan play bad!! haha...bought a racket long ago but no time to play.. the urge is unbearable..

sigh~ cannot spend alot of time with Char alr.. she got work now.. 1130- 830.. =( works everyday lor.. onli can off once a week.. somemore weekdays onli.. haha.. ok.. my pretty and cute and sexy Char has already attracted 3 guys at her work place alr.. my position as a bf is at stake!!! got 1 still like express his love lor.. sigh~ risky postion lor.. and baby still told me 1 of the guy she find him handsome.. *looks down*

k lar.. nth to write le ba.. lazy to think... hee time to shop for my clothing long time nv shop for my own things.. onli shop for Char's stuff.. hee.. see i gdote her so much.. everytime gives her surprises.. er hum.. -hints-

No internet

2004-12-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

no internet, can't blog..many things had happened. wanted to blog, but can't. now i've forgotten everything cos i got short term memory. If you all wan some updates, go to Char's blog.

Char have been bugging me to give her a suprise..keep hinting that she wants a new ring..[hey! i didn't! =s] What to do? buy for my precious lor..

After church, went to bryan house to play the com. After that, went to buy the rings (hers and mine). Travelled all the way down from Jurong East to Orchard. Went to Wisma Atria's Bits and Pieces and chose a pair of rings. Paid for them and did engravements on the rings, which took half and hour. In the meanwhile, i went to Dear's working place to look for her. Sigh, saw her talking to guys happily and laughing [hey, they are my colleages!], sad. Went to talk to her, but she was kinda cold [my rules and regulations said i can't talk to friends!]. think her love for me faded. -shrugs- [no, never dear...accuse me..=(]

Went back to get the rings and waited for her to finish her work. after that, we went to eat Long John's Silver. DEar didn't eat because she was quite full.

I went to dear's place for a while. Dear was whining on the way home that i didn't give her a suprise. haha. Upon reaching home, I gave her the rings. She smiled at me. hee. [thanks dear..muackz.]

Sat for a while, then i had to go. I have work tmr, she too.

The brackets are said by Char, because she's the one typing for me..I haven't got my internet ready yet. So see ya guys around!

[Stupid dear, say what he wanna blog half way then fell asleep. I had to finish it for him. argh. Now he's slping and i'm hearing him snore. haha! no lar. I can't hang up, cos he'll wake up upon hearing the 'engage' beeps. Sigh, my little pig. I love you dear! MUACKX!!!!! Take care honey. =)]

Goodnight.

16th Nov

2004-11-16T21:07:00.000+08:00

had a great time with Char tt day.. after work i went to meet her.. cos Char wanan go out to eat at Chomp Chomp on sunday. so ya lar.. i agreed since my dearest wanna go.. i told her i end at 8 den will reach her house at 830.. and guess wad.. last min got so mani ppl.. den i had to work n work.. i became super fed up cos i cannot meet dear at a time i promised.. in the end i worked till like 9? hai.

we had a great time during our "dinner" cos its alr like supper ahah. we played.. laughed.. and ate lots n lots n lots of FOOD!!! haha.. u can see the list at her blog. realli enjoyed my self there.. =) just love to be with her.. though there are mani pple ard.. but to me.. its just me n her.. tts my world..

today.. i msged Char.. some sweet stuffs.. hee.. but she nv reply.. den i know she is slping.. but i keep checking my fone in case she reply when she wake up.. but still no reply.. when i called her after work.. she answered.. she is using the com n watchin tv... my heart sank. cos last time once she wake up.. she'll reply if she read my msg.. dear have ur love for me faded?

11th Nov

2004-11-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm today work again~~ alone.. hmmm deepavali.. sad.. super crowded... almost cannot squeeze into the sentosa bus.. lol.. i was the last 1 to go in the bus... so packed with ppl... every1 is having holiday.. .but me??? WORK!!! freak.. sad.. haha..

today time past quite fast.. cos got alot of pple.. den i keep working.. den the nxt thing i know.. time past super fast.. but... guess wad.. i did not charge my fone!! ytd i pluck the charger alr.. but i forgot to on the switch -.- sadded.. so the whole day cannot contact Char... so terrible.. missed her to bits. hmmm everything is fine the whole day.. nth happen.. no pipe burst or wadeva..no lame pple... lol den i sat there thinking wad to blog.. i was thinkin: " today everything so smooth.. nth happen.. no lame pple.. wahah yay.. " the nxt thing i know.. the film got problem... pple ask stupid questions... bomb with me super unbelievable low IQ questions.. lol sad.. nvm.. Bless them Lord..

haha k lar.. i wanan go read Char's blog.. she told me to read... dunno when she'll type fin... tmr going gym.. n den swim.. Char says she's going to acc me.. yay!! lol gym tgd.. but i swim she study there.. lol... hope she dun look at other guys.. =) gd nite every1 =)

9th Nov

2004-11-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

hai.. 2nd day of work.. irritating pple.. lol hai~ sad.. see my msn nick.. lol sad case...

today got alot of pple irritates me.. but i serve them with a smile ya? heex. they ask lame qns like:

"How to wear the seat belts?" i'm like -.-'"'' like duh?? same as the taxi?? lol.. but i help them la.. nt tt bad.

"What am i suppose to do now?" -.-'''''''' like.. sit there and wait for the ride to start?!?!?! lol but i explain properly lar..

"Can u off the lights of the EXIT sign?? im like -.-''''''(with jaws wide opened) i answered no.

today got a bunch of jap gals.. lol.. they like got a crush on me like tt.. wahahha.. all keep looking at me.. hmmm in the end 1 ask me to take foto with her.. lol too bad im attached.. and u are going back.. BYE!! lol
today got alot of ang-mo.. european pple.. all of the ladies so pretty.. im so shocked.. cos all along my image of angmo ladies have big bellies... BUT!! today all young and gd figure.. 1st time.. shld i change my mindset of them?? theirs like appropriate breasts.. small waist average butt.. lol slim!! but char best lol!! dun scold me dear.. she appropriate b... small waist and big butt!!! lol (Char sure scold me)

whahaha sad... wad to do?? lol... i'm so tired after work.. dear just msned me.. she say my love for her faded -.- dunno lar.. im tired aft work.. den "hong" her a lil ba.. den she say:
"nah~ just felt the lack in l-o-v-e.. -smile- i'm fine dear..
no...just that, dear...everyday, i really yearn to feel your passion in loving me..."
told her i tired.. but nvm lar.. maybe i realli neglect her le.. haiz-sigh- sorry dear..
i told her.. i wan to hong.. but i alil tired.. tts why maybe i hong a while onli.. but know tt i love ya.. but she dun believe ba.. she say but u are hong-ing some1 u love.. wad i can i say.. think i neglect her le ba... sry dear haiz..

8th Nov

2004-11-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

hey guys.. long time didn't blog.. been realli busy these few days.. haha.. studying... all the stuff... 1st tell u all abt my exams lar.. hai.. think im gonna fail 2 papers... sad... den must retain i think forward modules. sad.. hai dun wanan talk abt it le la lol.. sad. thx dear 4 ur encouragement...

hmmm poly yr2 sucks lar... exams fin like just last friday.. den monday start work.. wadde.. like holiday for 2 days den work.. thx ah.. hai... my lecturer told me report at 830 at the place.. btw im working at sentosa.. cinemainia. ahah so i reached there at 812.. dun wanna late.. haha AND GUESS WAD!!! it opns at 11 LAR!!! den i im like **** lol den another guy is posted to the same company as me.. whaha he is my sec sch fren.. an indian.. but ok lar.. at least some1 i know. yay!! thank God! answered my prayers whaha so we talked awhile.. den ya lor.. sad.. so we waited tgd.. we got tired.. den we slpt on the bench.. the place totally no 1 in the morning.. super quiet till onli got crows.. sometimes quite noisy lol. den suddnely got some 1 open the door.. den we went to ask lor.. lol the person came at 1030.. -.- wa kaoz.. den he " your teacher nv tell u " ... dumb lecturer..

ok lar.. my work quite easy.. lol just on and off the simulator rides for visitors.. lol... like a movie but ur seats can move .. lol.. wahahah.. nth much lar.. den i like sat the rides dunno how mani times liao wahah.. i on for them.. den got count down.. den i faster hop on on 1 of the seats.. lol.. woot~~~ but now i a lil headache.. think i ride too much liao.. whaha.. den the thing shake so vigoriously for the 2nd ride.. 1st 1 super no kick.. lol.. ya lor.. sianz..

ahha k lar.. i go le.. tmr gotta go there at like 1045 sianz.. hate work.. lol though is super slack.. ahah imu dear.. hope to hear ur voice soon =)

31st Oct

2004-11-01T01:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm today is our monthniversary wahaha.. =) 9 months le.. n a long way to go i guess? =) today is oso the exact day.. 31st =) haha cos some mths does not have 31st... so usually we celebrated on the last say of the month..

so after church i brought Char out to eat..she decided on Swensen's. so we head to PS... 2 church fren came along.. so. .yepwe arent tt bad.. we always dun mind pple joining us.. so in the end they wanted to go thai express.. so ok lor =) -change of plans- yep.. i n Char always eats the same thing there ahah..

we did not take fotos cos its exam period so dun wanan waste too much time on those.. told her we'll continue it after her O's.. i wan her to study.. today realli enjoyed myself.. dunno why.. cos she's ard i guess.. =)

im tired.. cya guess.. ahah.. char happi monthiversary ya? love ya... =) God Bless our r/s =)

u are the light in my darkness..
joy in my sadness..
found u when im lost
love u with all i've got..

sry if i've hurt u..
know tt i nv intended to..
Though there's still a long way..
i'll always be there to stay..
to care and to love u as long as i'm there..

a lil smth for u sweetie.. 1st time.. think it sucked.. haha =)

30th Oct

2004-10-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm hiya guys... just feel tt no 1 is reading my blog leh.. haha onli Char.. shld i just end the blog?? haha since no 1 reading -sigh- exams.. yucks!! had 2 already.. was ok lar.. not much confidence.. everytime got do but dunno whether correct anot. =(

have been playing badminton recently.. duno y.. de-stress? -shrugs- no mood to study.. dun realli know wad to study and dun understand ya? haha a lil useless...haiz.. sometimes realli feel like going to a hotel with Char.. not tt i wanna have sex with her or wad.. i mean i just wanna spend time with her alone?? talkin? u know wad i mean?alone.. private time.. but there are always pple ard..

wanted to surprise Char just now... so went to her house after my bathe after badminton.. but!!! her whole family went out -.-.. sms her and found out she is makin spectacles... red plastic frame 1.. looks nice on her i guess =) tts wad i think dunno abt u guys.. think she's gonna wear it to church tmr.. i reach her house at ard 3.15.. but they all came home at 440.. haha so i sat at the staircase studying n listening to mp3.

left Char's house at ard 930 cos i wanan take a mrt home.. dun wanna waste money.. cos bringing her out tmr to eat =) yep.. she scold me for takin a cab in the morning to schol.. tts why i have to take mrt... =( so sianz!!! arrgghhh.. oh ya.. my tennis is getting worst.. dunno why.. the balls either kiss the net? or it fly out of court.. the more i played on fri the more i felt im hopeless.. maybe badminton is better haha...

Char's exams are coming... guys pray for her ya? and me too... in the midst of my exams.. yawn.. cya guys.. gonna catch some slp. nitez.. shld i stop bloggin?

27th Oct

2004-10-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. ctually hor i dunno wad to write.. ahhah im here to waste time =) Char's studying.. so i'v to wait.. so come to blog.. didnt want to blog till i finish my exmas.. but nvm.. exams are here. -sigh- and guess wad... i nv study.. and i nv attend lectures.. im so deaded.. pray lor.. i wanan study but cos nv go lectures.. den dunno wad the bk is talkin abt.. think i started out too late.. guys pls pray for me =( wahha.

haiz... guess wad... i just found out Poly yr 2 SUCK!!!! ahahah.. cos after exams have 2 day holiday den got attachment.. have to work with shitty pay haha.. and after attachment have 2 day holiday and den start schol.. like WADDEEE!!!!! where's my holidays!!?!? hahaha.. sda... tmr exam i dunno wad is it abt.. any1 can help?? Microcontroller Technology?? anyone? haiz.. no reply =(

so sianz... have to force myself to read the notes.. but i dun understand.. i think its useless... so ya.. haiz.. Char dun let me play games -.- .. nvm lor.. haiz hahaah today play bad den study in schol with my classmates.. play till so shiok... but tired.. haha haiz.. think ts all lar... i wanan go into my room and wait for her call heex..

24th oct

2004-10-24T01:24:00.000+08:00

hey every1 =) hmmm think most pple have finished their exams and are all enjoying themselves rite =( sadded i still got exams.. going to start nxt week and guess wa?!?? i haven even started yet.. haiz.. sadded... im going to blog a short 1 lar.. going to talk to Char le.

hmmm yesterday's tennis wasn't good.. i cannot serve well.. haiz.. i NID PRACTISE!!! but no 1 wans to practise with me.. crap.. was so pissed with my serve as well as my skills. sucks big time.. issit cos i just learn? or im just super lousy and untalented? maybe all of the above.. -sigh-

dear just now surprised me.. naughty Char. hmm she kind of appeared at my house?? haha... she came and brought me pearly soya milk and bacon stiick frm cold storage.. =) and bought liang cha for me cos i and heaty this few days. so yep =) hugged for a while den she have to go cos she has a class gathering.. =) heard tt she is going to marina to eat steamboat =).. think she enjoyed herself lar.. thx dear for everything today=). its a pleasant surprise. muackx

19th Oct

2004-10-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm think Char is slping.. cos she isnt answering my msn.. nvm =) have a gd slp ya? hmm.. so sianz.. now playing guitar.. wanna buy electric guitar but no money.. sadded.. i so poor.. lol or maybe i everytime waste money on taxis... lol hate the person who started the idea od taxis.. cos they purposely "seduce" me to tak e cabs.. hai... this cannot go on! i must cut down~.. this means i have to leave ur house at 10 everytime im at ur house.. oki? =( know u dun bear to see me leave so early but.. u know.. how to yang u if i waste money like tt.

sunday service was ok... whaah.. the best part is tt.. we went to the coffee shop nearby to eat.. guess wad.. tts the 1st time i tot singapore got hurricane.. lol.. it rain so heavily and the wind was so strong.. the tent we were under shook so violent ly tt i almost collapse. so all of us ran in the sheltered area.. every1 was like soaked in just a min.. some pple abandon their food and ran.. lol pple like bryan wahahah!!! his mee siam is soaked.. lol after tt we were settled down.. and bryan look sad.. whaha think he is grieving over his wet mee siam.. hmmm.. he ordered again.. haha the rain is quite scary. horrified! nvm.. wanted to go study at the club.. but Char wanna change her jeans to shorts.. lol i did protect her ok.. and i use my body to block the rain for her.. hee.. she nv say thx or reward me.. sadded.. *SIGH* . we decided to study at her house... lazy to go out and study = / .

ytd rushed another report in sch.. hate reports.. aarrgghh... lol wasted my brain cells.. today went schol for like 1 hr and went home.. whaha lame.. waste of time too.. sianz.. k lar i gtg.. mum calling me.. lunch time!!! ahaha.. cya guys.. God bless.

16th Oct

2004-10-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

hey guys =) so sianz hai... dunno why so moody.. oh ya got my attachment.. its super lame.. pay like shit and its at sentosa.. so difficult to get there.. and its soo early? hai.. so toot!

whahaha.. hmmm days without handphone is like no life? i dunno... cannot contact dear.. cannot msg Char... whaha.. so have to like borrow frens phone to sms her =) think she is surprise too.. lol hope she appreciates ttt.. hmmm so wednesday went to get my phone back lor.

thursday we went to study at her club.. hmm nth much.. whaha.. i was slacking.. sianz. hmm ytd tennis.. whahah finally yay! nv rain gd weather. i seems to lose some touch on my skills.. sianz.. my serve sucks.. and cant hit normal ball.. hai. we went to eat at the club.. hmm ya lor sent her back at 1030. wahah she stomach ache.. den she wanan shit whahaha... so b4 we went home so we went to the nearby toilet at the mrt.. so i waited lor. =) watch survivor and went home lor.. so late liaoz

haiz dunno why i cant stay till late at night... everytime i'll like fall aslp.. dear very unhappy.. cos she say we always dun talk much.. as i always fall aslp.. den she say she feel neglected.. den she say no pt to talk cos she every "wait for me to slp " on the fone.. haiz.. .sry lar.. my sch so sucky.. so i cannot get naps.. so ususaly i wake up at 7.. den till 12.. i everytime try my best le.. but u think i nv give any effort.. hai.. i'll try harder lor.. =)

11th Sept

2004-10-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm whahaha last week so fun w dear.. fri met Char.. hmmm actually got tennis den it rained like last min?!?!?! thanks ah.. haha nvm lor.. we watch tv.. Singapore idol results.. haiz.. why on earth is Jerry Ong still there?? lol hmmm kind of spiling pple's dream of becoming a idol.. ahhaa David is gone = (..

sat we met like at 1?? if i nv remember wrongly .. cos dear's hp got something wrong.. hmm ya lor.. accompany her go Nokia care (wheel lock).. hmm waited quite a while lor.. den had to collect her fone after 2 hrs... so we walked to er Cinne to eat Ramen.. haha. enjoyed myself there.. we had the rum N raisins ice ream.. lolx.. den we went to get present for her mum.. b-dae.. so bought a lil jewelries.. hmmm. i paid all though Char say wanna share.. ahah she bluff me =( wahah.. its ok lar.. den we went back collect the fone... den rushed for our tennis practise.. cos ytd rain so today just go for make up lae.. join other class..

baby kind of remember the place wrongly.. den we went to the wrong court lor.. haiz... tts my blur lil gal... sometimes realli cant stand her.. blur till like tt.. so we looked totally stupid when we were on the wrong destination.. finally reached the palce.. the class is super big.. so mani pple.. not our age lar... like age 9-14?? i dunno.. but they are super pro? lol they learn frm young.. and me 2 months?? was embarrass at 1st but got use to it.. and its not the age lar.. its how long u learn i think. after playing.. Char's mum fetch us for dinner at Serangoon Garden chicken rice restaurant. ahha den went home.. =)i stayed for awhile den left...

sunday same thing.. church.. DG was cancelled so went to eat lunch with some pple there.. den er.. when to catch Wimbledon... the tennis romance show... so nice.. at least to me.. cos i n Char play tennis? hmm... not bad leh the show.. not nice den blame me.. go catch it lar.. =) hmm they got such gd rackets... hmmm wishing list : new n gd tennis racket. ani 1 heard me? hahah all sure say no.. haha am i rite? so siamz.. im getting tired... and dear is skipping schol tmr.. and she is like proud of it.. ahha.. bth her.. she says she can tell no gal is going to sch tmr.. so nvm k lo dun go but u better study at home.. tts wad u told ur mum.. and she will nag if u dun do wad u promised..

after the movie.. we went home lar... found the house empty.. had a gre8 hug with Char =) den went dinner w her parents and grandma.. char's mum b dae.. hmmm went to mount faber to eat.. haha near my house. v near.. so we ate at a restaurant on top of the hill.. hmm not bad lar.. western cruisine.. =) nice view.. found out there's a very romantic pub at the cable car station.. =) super NICE view of scenery.

ahhaa... k lar i gtg.. eyes ar eclosing.. and i got to call dear.. haha
k lae.. gtg.. cya guys God bless.. quick dear.. miss ya bb

super sianz leh... tmr got prsentation... must wear formal.. sianz to the max. hee.. dunno wanan wear a lil more sloppy anot.. see lar. tmr den call and ask the rest. so tired.. its like 12 now... yawns
anyway, i left my fone at Char's place... sianz.. ahha forgot to bring home.. how can i forget tt?? haha nvm.. going to get it back soon i hope.. den can see her.. yipee.. =)

my freind ask why i used subway instead of MRT when i always do.. lol sadded... trying to use better word to improve english wad.. haha.. nvm lor i use back MRT lor.. cannot act pro meh.. hmph~
oh ya bought a new shirt.. hahah.. so ex.. sadded.. dear went in the fitting room with me too.. and she molest me.. hiaz.. details on her blog.. lol j/k lar we are decent.!

5th october

2004-10-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm... still have 2 more months... baby... i wan to have u .. hope tt ur o lvl fin soon.. =) ahaha... den i can hug u everywhere even at ur house .. lol... den we watch tv u can lie on me le.. haiz.. *dreams* sianz... miss dear.. now onli can like meet her once a week... if her o's over den mauhahaha!!!! =) we'll go out as much as possible... =D

last friday =) haha hmm... tennis is cancelled.. so cannot meet Char cso onli can meet once a week remember?? so hai cannot meet.. super sad.. but cos i told my mum that im not going home for dinner so i joined my classmates lo.. the going to xiao bai's house. we played guitar there.. a lil com games and card games lor.. den baby say without her im still having fun.. which is not true.. cos i already wanan give her a surprise. i'm going to her house at night to give her a surprise lar.. but she say i dun care abt her animore... haiz.. she cried too.. = ( i reached her house with her fav snack.. but i decided to hang it there and den tell her in sms.. but haiz.. she is angry/sad with me.. so she did not wanan read.. so i gave her 2 calls telling her to read.. but she told me she lazy .. -.- super sad.. heart broke.. everything broke.. lol hmm so nvm lor i walked to the subway.. when im almost going off.. dearie called (crying) askin me not to go and keep asking where am i... my heart melt.. =( haha.. when baby found me she hugged me.. poor baby. eyes swollen and red and watery.. silly gal.. love ya.. hmm

haha sun we went church tgd.. den when out lor... went to m1 shop with dear.. she had some problems with her new bought fone Nokia 6230. yep.. den we went to have dinner with my parents =) nice food.. den we went to ctach movie at Great World City.. white chicks.. not bad. quite funni.. aft that we went to the jig saw puzzle shop to ask for our missing piece.. cos we went 3 mth ago to do but still no sign of it.. so we went to check it out and guess wad.. the damn shop closed down.. nanapok! angry ah.. haiz.. but im going to other branch to ask lar.. ahha..

ytd and this morning super stress.. .cos im rushing my report writing.. sianz.. so stress ahaha... but finish it in class lor and passed up.. dunno how is it.. i left out alot of stuffs.. haiz.. God Bless.. =) gtg... cya guys... baby i miss ya.. hee.. call ya lata =) ani way wanna edit.. i did not cry ok tt day.. i just teared .. lol.. =)

30th sept

2004-09-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

SIANNNNZZZZZZ... i accidentally deleted the whole entry wa lao.. i forgot wad i say liaoz lo.... sianz... try to recall la..irritated lol

muahahahha it have been like sososos long since i blog.. have been busy? or rather lazy lar.. haha.. typical me.
so sianz.. got back my results.. so lousy lol pass 2 failed 2.. =( sadded.. onli tt stupid bryan.. ahha pass all.. still keep saying tt he nv study and keep saying he will fail all.. liar haha.. the whole class condemn him alr.. haha

actuall y i kind of forgot wad happen last week lar.. my memory is nv good.. haiz.. unable to recall leh.. sad.. think im dying soon.. today is our 8th monthniversary =) hmm wish us all the best and keep us in ur prayers.. we will grow strong in the Lord =)

we had er ice cream moon cake last week.. with Ruz.. dear's classmate. we were at ps.. wanted to go Swensens' to eat.. but they said sold out.. haha so we went to another place to eat lor.. Glelare or something like tt.. lol on the way we saw dearie's mum lol... den we asked her along lor.. hehe =) hmmm den her mum treat lol... we had the last ice cream mooncake .. phew.. dear wanna eat it badly =)

we took pics too.. cos i kinda promise dear tt we'll take pics on every monthniversary.. haha.. u know those neoprints or card.. dunno wads tt called.. lol... hmmm dun realli like those things cos i find it sissy.. i nv tried it b4 in my life till she foreces me lol... voilent rite.. but its ok lar.. lol take pics .. a memory =) ya lor.. so nvm lar. i dun mind being a sissy for 5 mins everymonth.. lol.. muaamuahahaha u all didn't see tt.. haha.. Char dun find it sissy can le.. muahaha...

k lar... i gtg laioz... i wanan watch singapore idol.. haha.. yay maia got gd comment.. =)haha.. cya peeps

21th Sept

2004-09-21T16:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm so long nv blog... not realli free these few days.. was having my exams and stuffs..den nv even on the com.. haha.. think my com rest enough alr =) exams were ok lar.. all super difficult.. hai wad can i do tried my best alr.. =)

met dearie on fri.. she gave me a cookie from famous amos which is nice.. and it have "i love u" on it =D so sweet rite.. haha.. she bought me soya bean pearl too =) all for me.. muahahah so happy.. went to her house lor.. both of us fell asleep in the end.. haha so we woke up quite late... so we took a cab to have our tennis training. was a lil late.. everything is normal .. till we started playing a game.. which brandon is super lame.. hard to explain.. just an irritating idiot pissing me off.. nvm.. char's dad drove us to buy dinner and went home.. ate with her family =)

on sat we met again~ whaahah.. cos char is having a practice in her church at like 430.. so we met like 12? yep.. when she told me its ard 10.50.. so i sure late de lor.. so i decided to take a cab.. but the best thing is i dunno the place and the old man act smart brought me to the wrong place.. hiaz.. but nvm lar.. cannot blame him.. had a positive attitude lar.. but im super stony.. i figured how to walk to the place im meeting char.. i always do even i dunno the place.. *shrugs* so walk under the super super hot sun.. carrying a super super heavy bag as my mum ask mi to bring some mooncakes for her. so walked like 20 mins.. so actually can be early .. in the end late for like 15 mins.. and waste $10 and waste my sweat. nvm lar.. reach my destination.. didn't see her.. so i waked the whole shopping centre.. its not very big lar.. lookin into every shops for her.. search in vain.. walked back to the meeting place and saw her.. her mood not very gd cos of her mum and im late(found out lata). ahah didn't tell her the reason lar.. so we didn't talk for 15 mins?? or 20? dunno.. see her so moody den i told her lets dun walk sit down lor.. den both of us stone there... she is angry and im super sianz aft the walk.. she lean on me and told me she angry cos i late.. den i told her the reason lor..
we hugged for a while and everything is ok =) went to shop for her fren's present..i paid a lil too =)
at night went dinner with her parents.. at serangoon gardens.. brought their dog there =)

went church on sun everything the same.. had a oversea pastor to preach.. yep.. everything is gd.. had YF den went to eat with them at Buger King.. saw so many CCS pple there haha.. den i n char went to catch our movie at Ps--DODGEBALL.. quite funny lar... ahah den kind of went home?? cos char got exams? so went home to study.

char bought pyjamus too.. lol cute eh.. hmmm spent so much time with her.. think she is happy lar i hope if not im in some trouble i guess.. haha k lar.. i gtg.. sianz going to bathe cya.. got some results back.. haiz.. sucks.. bad results.. stay tuned.. tell u all the results when i get all back? lol

Take care and God bless..

14th Sept

2004-09-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

mauahhah hi guys... hmmm writing a super short blog.. cos i gtg.. study... stupid exams.. totally dun understand wad im studying rite now.. its like arabics.. haiz... just wanna tell u guys i got myself a Sony Ericsson K700i muahahaha... cant use it.. cos must charge aarrggh... 12 hrs.. yawns..

gtg le.. just wanna add a smile on u guys.. wanna let u see how lazy my dearie is muahahaha..

: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
work waiter.. see pples mood and get lil money u know 1k is diff to get..
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
and u work so hard for it
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
haha..
.:* Charlene*:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
work as the mop floor lor..
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
.:* Charlene*:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
mop floor everyday see floor only wad..
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
nope
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
pple scold u for making it wet
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
nv mop properly
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
pple vomit so smelly u wanna cleam
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
clean*
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
eekz..
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
then nvm. i dun wanna be liao
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
i sell tissues
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
sell tt pple scold u.. sell so ex... den no 1 wanna buy 1.. u stand there from morning till night.. sell 5.. earn $1 u go lor
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
hmph...
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
aiyah, i shall OFFICIALLY LIVE OFF YOU!!!
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
-winks-
: Simple LOgic : [R&C] Our Own Sweet Cinderella Story... says:
tts wad u are doing my wife
.:* Charlene*:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
muahahhaa.
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
i'm gonna eat up all your money
.:* Charlene *:. [R&C] - 310104, Our Cinderella Story. says:
hahahhahahah

waahha... my dearie cute rite.. cant stand it.. love ya dear.. muackz u a million times =P

13th sept

2004-09-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

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im nth special.. im neither rich nor im gd at words.. im not romantic and i cannot capture a lady's heart like those Prince charming.. i cannnot make a lady happy but i can onli make her cry.. am i the Prince Charming u are looking for?

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sososososo sianz to the max.. lol this WHOLE week got exams.. yawn.. today's a killer.. so expected wads to come for the nxt few days.. ahhasososo difficult.. think gonna fail all my things?? hmmm i tried my best today.. the questions so weird.. haiz.. past yr papers are like so easy.. why ours not leh.. cheat one.. haiz.. =(

hmmm went to dearie's church last sunday again~~ haha gotta make sure something lar.. haha.. yep. ahah.. ya lor. we had like 50 mins to eat cos we are going to catch a movie at 230 at PS.. Cinderalla.. dunno got spell correctly anot.. haha..we went to eat with ann leyna anad her bf.. Ann so poor thing.. like so lonely.. but me n baby accompanied her.. =) cos we know she lonely.. so we talked to her.. and i few times i ask baby to walked beside her.. lol im fine with it.. we went eat Thai Express..not realli nice there.. Esplanade's 1 is the best lar. whaha hmm ya lor.. Leyna n her bf whaha so obsene.. kiss here kiss there.. wahah stewpid leyna.. maybe i shld say me n my char more mature lar.. haha =P

ok.. wait for the food wait so long.. in the end we like gonna be late.. so we took a cab lar.. whaha.. all my aloowance always wasted on cab.. hiaz.. on tt day spend like $30 on cab.. haiz.. lol sadded.. i must control liaoz.. yep.. reached PS at 230.. went staight into the theatre.. cos we bought the tx frm an AXS machine at serangoon gardens.. haha hmm the movie ok lar not bad.. knew baby somehow like tt..

we knew thru the net.. talk more.. den started sms-ing her.. but dear last time dun realli reply my msg.. haha i was quite sad.. i sometimes tot to myself that this sure will not work out .. but.. who knows?? thank God.. den we talked on the fone.. almost everynite.. still remember once we talked till 5 .. haha.. hmmm 1st time met on our 1st date.. and tts how things started to bloom.. =)

after the movie we went her house to study lor.. cos we have irritating exams.. haha.. but.. lol reached her house not long den her Dad called and like ask us to get rdy for dinner.. haha.. so didnt study lar.. went to eat ..shop ard.. had a great time with baby.. hehe

hiaz cannot blog anymore longer.. need to bathe and eat dinner le.. cos my mum is going to finish cooking.. and she is nagging.. lol =P take care guys.. =) bye.. pray for my exams.. yawn lol

9th Sept

2004-09-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

whahhaha... so happi.. hmm got 1 of my fren say my baby very pretty very cute~.. wad can i say.. i was humble and said ok lor.. normal.. =P wahaha keke baby got pple say u pretty ok.. and i do agree.. so dun say urself ugly.. but seriously u got an ugly bf.. sadded...

hiaz.. im sososoo worried abt dear.. cos she got cg today.. den normally she end not so late de.. den i called her no answer.. so scary.. tot wad happen to her.. den just treid again~ den she picked up.. now its like 11?? think she dunno im worried lar.. den she talked to me with a very cold attitude.. dunno why lar.. sigh~ mood changed -.- b4 her cg she say she's gonna call when she;s on the fone.. now she say reach home den call.. nvm lar.. ur choice dear.. think u tired.. =/

hiaz.. nvm lar.. talk abt ytd.. mhmm ytd met dear lar.. to day.. we are such a guai couple rite.. waahha no lar.. cos she got prelims nxt week and i got like exmas nxt week.. sianz.. hmmm she wanan see me in the morning... so meet her at 830? lol woke up a lil late.. den faster rush to her house lar.. keke.. leeft house alil late.. so dear tot im not gonna make it at 830.. so she threw a lil temper lar.. haha texted me with a bad attitude ahha.. but indeed im late.. whahaha.. oops.. for like 3 mins.. =( ya lor.. we decided to go her country club to study lar.. went with her mum cos she is gong for aerobics.. hmm free ride.. =) reached there.. saw the sun like quite nice for tanning so we kinda changed and went for a swim?? whahah i know study.. but.. maybe lata =S and den tan lo.. (we decided to tan alr lar.. so brought our things). hmmmm bathed and went for lunch at macs.. and den studied lar.. hmm till like 645.. and we went to eat at a japanese restaurant.. hmm and went backed to study for a while more and den sent her home.. lol..
anw while studying in the noon.. i felt tired.. and laid down on the desk.. hmm dearie stroke me.. haha so nice.. den piggy me fell aslp.. keke... =P den lata dear oso got slpy.. so i stroke her and pat her.. den she fell aslp too.. muahaha.. 2 piggies.. nice couple rite.. hmm but both of us slp a while lar.. just enjoy myself there lor.. just like to spend my time with dearie.. =) like the whole day?? till 11?? wahahah.. =)

yep.. going to see her tml =) hmm study alil den go tennis training yay!! just love tennis =) ahha.. everytime look forward to fri.. hhehe just now watch spore idol.. the result lame lar.. so not right.. so.. no! ahha wrong coice.. guess they have more frens tts all.. wahha .. hmm k lar i gtg.. sianz.. zzZzz lol

6th Sept

2004-09-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm ytd went to dearie's church.. wahhaha hmm wad ato say leh.. lesser pple obviously.. ahha .. pple there ok lar.. cos i know most of them?? ahha cos i attended some of their camps and activities lar.. =P
had bible study there and YF.. (youth felowship).. their bible study is totally different lor.. hmm cos they read a few verses and den explain and ask questions.. like how u apply.. i think its better lor.. cos u understand and u apple and u think.. hmm *shrugs* ahha everything is ok lar.. just tt the song a little ZzZZz.. whaha.. and pple dun realli sing... pple like that gay bryan..

after tt... we went to heartland mall(kovan) to makan.. ate burger king. hehe... ya lor.. den we went to catch a movie at tbp.. cos near my house.. lata bringin dearie home for dinner with my parents.. hmmm we watch Anacondas.. ok lar the show.. whahah the plot ok lor.. normal plot.. suspense ok lor.. just keep hugging dear there whaahhaha oopps.. sry.. hmmm ya lor.. ate a nice meal.. and we watch tv.. .dear not feeling well... so she slp on my bed... ahha she says she likes it cos its cosy and have my smell.. so smelly lor.. whahaha guess all gf likes the smell of their bf.. =) but my parents got worried.. den dad gave mi like $30 to send her home by cab?? 0.0 whaha..so we left house immediately lor.. but!!!! naughty dearie say she ok.. den she wanna go buy the heels she saw just now... so haiz.. wad to do.. bring her there after confirming tt she is ok.. so went there and bought it lor.. told the salesgirl to get a new pair.. and the pair wads a lil spoilt.. den change.. we were not satisfied lol and change 3 times awhaha.. think she wanan kill us.. but she very friendly lar.. ahha.. maybe nxt time outside the shop will have a notice "no roy&char allowed" haha bought the heels for dear.. she wanna pay me lar.. i dun wan but she slot $7 into my wallet.. lol the shoe not so cheap lar.. but she just wanna pay a lil.. silly gal.. mUaCkZ!!

hop onto a cab and went straight home.. haha.. touched dear with a sentence.. whahah im so good in coaxing gals.. no lar kidding.. i realli meant it dear.. =)realli.. actually come to think of it is most of the time.. not sometimes.. wrong choice of words.. yep.. stayed at her house for a while.. watch tv... den went home lor.. super tired ..

hmmmm... holidays have started.. haiz... didn't look forward to this holiday.. cos after this holiday is exams.. haiz.. so sianz.. dun like exams.. who likes it?? maybe joce lar.. wahahah.. *shrugs* im camping at home.. yawns.. tired like mad.. woke up at 8 all b'cos of a stewpid mosquito... darn~ it bit both my left ear and my left ear.. mad .. AARRGGH~ super itchy lor.. and it flew so clos to my ear tt woke me up totally.. thx ah.. woke up and use my blanket and smack the whole bed.. -think im mad too-.. its early in the morning.. wad do u expect.. ahaha.. and when i wake up.. there is no way i could fall aslp.. sms dearie..

hmmm now im going to study.. ahha like real~ lol hmmm gtg.. bb chill~

4th September

2004-09-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm ytd's tennis is fun whahaha... played an interesting game.. my team was leading.. but in the end lost?? wahahah clement so blur... dunno how to count.. den we lost -.- sad.. nvm lar... its ok.. i found tt ive improved? yay!! so happi..lolxxx... ate there... den went to bathe?? wahah baby and i dun have towels.. but we still bathed.. dun ask how.. whahah we are smart... =) den sent dearie home.. =) in the end reached baby's house ard 11.. so gtg lor.. den went home..

today had to wake up early to go schol.. -.- yes.. its sat and i've to go schol.. all b'cos of the stupid ITP(industrial training program) i think.. haha forgot.. nv listen lar.. was day dreaming. hmmm... after tt went to work.. whaha.. 1st day of work lor.. was ok lar.. working in a country club.. dearie dun support me.. she dun wans me to work.. dunno why lar.. its not tt i work everyday wad... just maybe once a week? .. gives attitude when i talk abt work.. dunno lar.. how i wish i could share with her wad i do there.. wad things happen.. wanna tell her but she said dun talk to me abt ur work.. 0.0 nvm lor.. btw.. the pple there(costumers) they are arrogant.. expect some.. they so sucky.. wahha.. so wad if u have money.. big shot ah.. lame.. hmm dun wanna say liaoz since baby dun wanan know.. so i dun blog tt.. hmmm was ok lar.. worked frm 11-7.. tired...

baby went for canoeing.. asked me to go.. but i have worked.. i tried to cancel my work but cant..is i cant.. not tt i dun wan.. but dunno why she keep raking it up.. tt i can go and se is sad.. i cant do anything abt it wad dear...dunno lar.. guess its my fault .. sorry.. she told mi her canoeing will end at 4.. so i msg.. and called.. and called.. but she nv answer.. den like 7+ den she called back.. guess she dunno how much i missed her.. her voice.. but in the end hanged up cos italked abt my worked.. den she kind of no mood to talk.. haiz... msg her lor.. den stopped cos she wanna eat dinner le.. baby told me she sea sick just now.. so poor thing... mUaCkZ..

dunno why when doing things.. i cannot do it properly or happily when baby dun support me.. her blog say till i dun wanna study.. wanna work.. haiz.. its not like tt.. my parents aren't working.. though they got money but i realli dun feel like getting more from them?? and i need new fone?? cos my current wan is realli in bad condition.. i work cos i had to.. not for fun dear.. think u still dun agree.. nvm.. miss u so much.. tell mi meet online.. but so long le still no sign of u.. =( just miss ya dear..

tml going to baby's church =) hope everything will be fine~ =(.. im a shy guy.. tml see so mani strangers.. scary.. yep.. anw going home with baby to eat with my parents.. =) mum is cookin.. yay! thx mummy.. gtg guys.. bb..

1st September

2004-09-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm ... ytd was our 7th monthniversary.. hehe.. dearie came to my schol to meet me.. hehe so nice. mUacKz.. heheh taught baby how to walk into my sch... wahaha.. she got direction problems.. so er.. super difficult.. haha.. hmm but smart dear managed to find the place.. or rather my instructions are clear and gd.. hehe... ya lor.. met her.. den we went to Foodcourt 4 and ate desserts.. hee.. den went and booked a com and we played games there and dear blog a short entry there. haha.. after tt dearie wanna eat Yoshinoya.. so brought her lor.. cos she is my dearest lil gal.. =) Food is nice ah.. but i got throat ulcer =(.. so was a lil painful lor.. but nvm lar.. dear is worried so i tried to hide the pain.. dun wan dear dear to get worried.. lata she get more wrinkles den scold me whaha..

this morning is stewwwpid.. i for gt to tell my parents tt my morning 8-10 class is cancelled.. so they woke mi at 6.30 0.0" ahhaa den once i get up i cannot get back to slp de.. so yep.. haiz.. went to schol.. think im 5 mins late.. sianz.. ya lor.. den the best thing is tt the class ended like in half an hrs time.. so we ended like 1030.. -.-
hmm so my classmates and i went to eat.. i practically forgot i got throat ulcer.. and went to order chicken chop.. lol altgd we bought 7 chicken chops. hee.. when i sat down with the food and after saying grace i remembered -.- so im like shit! ahah so i ate the chicken onli and bread.. den the fries.. gave Bra eat the fries.. cos he nv eat.. he says he's full.. he's full of crap.. lol

the 1-3 class ended 30 mins earlier.. and i had to wait another hour for my tennis training.. so yep.. played badminton 1st.. haha den went tennis.. after holding badminton racket and den my tennis racket.. like WOW so heavy. haha.. realli enjoyed myself there.. ahha quite fun today.. did some stroking 1st .. den played a set.. need to win 6 games.. ahah so i think we won 6-0 wahhaha.. *evil*.. ya lor.. i can do super slicing serve.. but quite inconsistant.. hmm nid some practising.. and nid to master the normal serve.. ( i learn the slicing serve b4 the normal ones..) ahha weird me.. after the game we continue rally for 1 hour.. super tired.. den still nid to buy dinner home for Dad n myself.. not tt i dun wanna buy.. just tired so im grouchy.. ahha.. had to carry my sshoe bag.. my racket and the food.. =( so tired.. but thank God.. he send my bus immediately.. haha.. no nid to wait.. yay!

now im like waiting for my baby to call mi lor.. think now she is eating her dinenr outside.. she went out todae cos she got holiday..-.- hate poly.. childrens' day and youth day we too old.. labour dae we too young.. so wad holiday oso dun have.. -.- wadde.. hmm.. stupid teachers day.. sadded.. haha Baby went to Wild wild Wet to play lor. sad.. she go enjoy.. but i suffer in schol.. lol.. hmmm.. baby actually wanna wear her bikini there to play.. wahah but i dun let.. too bad.. so i think she wear sports bra.. hmm.. yay! think dear enjoyed herself lar.. but hor.. got a guy asked for her number lor.. and she gave.. like wadde... got once a gal frm friendster wanna noe my number.. i asked her onli.. nv give.. she kicked a big fuss.. and attitude mi for quite a while.. now she give.. so wad am i going to do?? haiz.. nvm lar.. as long as she is happy? =) i love ya dear.. so when she told mi abt tt on the fone.. i just reacted normally lor.. nvm lar.. make new frens.. widen her circle of frens.. dear.. aft reading this i dun wan u to reject pple cos u dun wan mi to be unhappy.. go ahead and know them.. =) widen ur circle..

i think nth to blog le.. bye.. God bless .. dear i miss u.. my fears is clinging on to mi now.. =( where are u...

haiz.. talking to her.. just noe tt she actually took pic with the guy.. dunno.. nth to say.. haha baby is so spoilt.. dad is going to fetch her home.. lol

30th August

2004-08-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm so sad now lor.. .cos dearie ask mi to join her youth fellowship for canoeing.. but i cant.. got to work lor.. i wanan go with her de.. tried to cancel the work.. but cannot liaoz too late.. haiz.. dumb mi.. i realli wanna accompany baby.. but =( how i wished i can tell her how badly i wanna go with her.. but dumb mi dunno how to express.. im never gd with words...

hmmm alot alot alot of pple have a mind set tt poly is funn haiz.. whahah alot of my frens(sec sch) think so.. but.. NO! ahah so sianz.. cos alot of holidays we dun have?? childrens day we too old. youth day we too old too... no teachers' day.. everything no.. like 0.0.. thx ah.. ahah sec sch have sch frm 725- 2? ply 8-5.. -.-
ahha nvm lar.. looking forward for baby to come poly den will be very very very fun wahahah YAY!!! .. but provided she come my sch lar.. lata she go jc =(.. wahha but if can i wan her to go jc too.. better prospect i guess.. dunno lar..see wad she prefers.. but she sure say poly.. lazy gal

hmm fri we had tennis.. haha had fun there.. but starting of the training super slack.. dunno why also leh.. Alfred play like shit.. ahah he super slack den influence mi.. den he act gay some more.. sianz.. den we played matches.. haha lost to felicia.. -.- sadded.. whaha cos im too slacked? haha played with Brandon..an idiot.. he looks like a ball.. and he is an arrogant idiot.. whaha but i won him.. he learn so long still lose to mi.. he sch team i guess.. but i won?? i learnt for less den 2 months..whaha .. the best part.. he was doing volley during the ball.. den i purposely did a loop whaha !!! and he lose.. he noob.. =D ate there.. whaha i ate like $10 worth of food.. its her parents club.. so ya.. im going to pay lar.. cos too much lar.. i dun like to eat using pple's money.. unless its a treat.. ya lor.. just dun like .. i wanna enjoy my food .. tts when i pay myself.. =)
den sent dear home.. den ya lor.. when home.. =) miss dear.. (actually miss her everyday lar)

On sat.. hmm went for the Zpop concert.. whaha quite fun lar.. nice music.. chinese songs lar.. got alot of singers/artists.. e.g energy, nan quan mama, da di, fir, stella,he yao san and alot alot lar.. some i nv hear b4 de lor.. haha.. yep saw tt idiotic glenn.. whah he went too.. lol so we went to find him.. oh.. i with my cell grp.. -.-
anw.. yep.. finally get to see his GF .. why i bold it.. cos im his 6 yr buddy and tt gay nv intro his gf to mi.. lol they tgd quite long i still dunno how she looks like.. this is how Glenn treats his 6 yr fren.. haiz.. sadded to the max... yep btw.. Glenn and i going to learn driving nxt week lar.. his mum says nxt week.. so yar.. =) finally... waited so long for him lor.. yep.. im going to work this sat.. i dunno work as wad.. onli know im working in a country club lar.. so.. ya.. ahah weird mi eh? hehe

Sun had church lor.. we took a cg photo cos mike is leaving.. he is going back to nepal.. den go toronto to study i guess.. like wow.. 0.0 met dear after tt.. hmm met her at.. dhoby ghout.. cos she is at novena previously.. yalor. den she wanna go home to take her watch cos w/o her watch she feels retard.. haiz.. can live w/o mi but not her watch.. *cries* yep.. we went to kovan to take pics.. cos i somehow promise dearie tt every month we'll take pics on our monthniversary.. ya.. =) very nice lor the pic we took ahah.. but.. hmm the machine so cheapo give like 150 sec to decorate 4 pics.. like -.-.. in the end the pics alil plain but still nice.. cos wad im looking at is my dearie ahha mUaCkZ baby..
after tt.. proceeded to buy handfone chains.. ahha we took a super super long time to choose the decorations.. haha .. i dun have the pics.. but 1 DAY i'll put lar.. wahhaa.. u all wait lor.. whahaha *evil*.. den we went to have dinner with my parents.. haha the food not very nice.. think the chef change or he deprove.. yep..
here comes the best part:
we wnt to Ikea.. wahahhaha.. so sosoos fun... sosoosos nicee..we walked the whole place.. both of us onli my parents went home.. we come to diff sections lar.. haha came to a bedroom.. den got a chair.. with cushion.. dear like it so much ahah.. think im going to buy tt and place it im my new house.. my own room.. hehe.. we sat on the chair for quite awhile.. quite cosy.. we went ard sitting on diff sofas.. wahha we look simply like a young couple.. newly weds.. so loving.. hee.. tried beds too.. and we come across a bed sheet super nice.. sweetie loves it very much.. the pink one.. nice to touch and see.. dear say wanna buy the blue one for mi.. wahaha.. silly gal.. so ex u know.. we walked ard and looked at alot of stuffs.. dear n i are going to buy house slippers.. and we're gonna where in my new house.. cos she'll come my house often ba.. =) yay! yep.. we went "awww" when we came to the kids sections.. got baby cots(dunno wad is it called.. baby slps in tt) ahah .. we were like we wan a baby.. hehe.. went in some show rooms.. like wow.. 0.0 can we get married now.. LIKE NOW.. hha.. cant think of anything more.. hmm short term memory.. but realli had a gd time there.. hee.. love ya baby..
we took bus home.. ahah dear got a lil bus sick.. lol she always have..poor baby.. hugged her lor.. and she is cold.. haiz.. rub her lor.. eh.. dun think dirty.. rub her arms.. yep.. had her in my arms for thw whole bus ride.. quite long.. hee.. ya lor.. reached her house.. den ya lor.. stayed awhile.. den went home by cab..

haha today.. got like 2 lab test? 1st one to mi is super easy.. finished it in like 20 mins.. whaha no kick.. but the other one is like -.- sianz.. dunno how to do lor.. whahaa haiz.. played badminton lor.. anw im sick.. haha got throat ulcer.. super pain lor.. even eating porridge hurts.. saliva is a killer too.. haha brought water bottle to sch.. refill like 5 times?? and my bottle is like 750 ml.. whaha.. drink and urine.. drink and urine.. drink and urine.. drink and urine.. hehhe.. hmmm... k lar.. i gtg le lar.. my mum nagging.. says im sick slp now -.-.. ahah dearie also wana read my blog.. ahha so gtg..

ANW.. tml is out 7th monthniversary wahahah .. ayayayayay!!!! hehe .. long way to go ya dear?? love ya..
i'll be with you as long as u want me to.. hehe sounds familiar.. hmm.. where did i hear it frm.. hee..

God bless.. cya guys.. slp early.. whaha.. =)

love,
Roy...
will my greatest fear ever come truE??

27th August

2004-08-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

hee... now im at baby's house.. hmm her mum is at home.. her bro is at home.. but she is not =( hmph.. nvm lar..she got test ma.. dear all the best.. =)ahah u can do it.. add oil.. jiayou..!!

hmmm.. just now in sch..nth lor.. just had sch frm 9-12.. den no more lessons already.. so ate.. den went to baby's house.. whaha wait for baby to come back is wad im doing now.. 0.0 wahaha... wanted to go Bra's house to waste time 1st.. cos dear onli fin sch at 4.30.. den reach home aslo 515.. but too mani pple going to his house.. den he scared mum will scold.. den nvm lor.. i say i dun go since all the others dun wanna back out.. some1 got to take initiative.. think im mature enuff to do tt.. whahah.. =)

on the way to dear's house.. saw two frens.. combine lecture.. so.. yep talked lor.. wahaha.. 1 of them his gf came poly this yr.. so.. yar.. when is dear coming =( den yep.. told them im going to my gf's house when they asked.. they asked wad am i going to do there with a sly attitude whhaa.. all they think is sex.. wahah.. no lar.. told them i go there wait for baby char lor.. den they ok.. den ask mi remember to go 7-11 1st (buy condom) im like -.- whaha nvm lar.. btw i n dear innocent pple ok.. =)

hmmm miss dear sosososo much... sad.. think i go stone while thinkin of her ba.. whahamuaahaa.. bye..

24th August

2004-08-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

hiyee...
haiz.. didnt know time fly so fast...

its like 12 days since i last blogged?? haha dunno lar.. time flies.. and i just found out i dunno wads going on in my studies rite now.. its like the eighth week.. and i know realli nth abt the modules im taking this yr.. im too slack.. i realli nv listen in class and i come back home and do everything but study.. darn.. am i gonna retain.. i just cant get myself to study.. guess im too lazy?? think i wanan study le.. =)

last fri didnt have tennis.. it rained =( so baby and i stayed indoors lor.. hahah nth to do.. watch tv lor.. but i enjoyed myself =) cos having baby with mi in contented.. im happy..=) i just love ya dear.. we didn't hug.. cos her parents dun let her be in a relationship.. cos they want her to concentrate on her studies..*shrugs* do u know wad a torture.. when the gal u love u sitting beside u but u cant hug her?.. how i wish .. baby will ya marry mi?.. = (

sat i got cell group as usual.. hmm didn't play guitar .. wasn't told =) ate KFC after tt.. whahaa.. nice! but got bird flu -.- but i said grace whahaha.. so God will bless me man! AMEN! haha ya lor.. went home aft tt.. =)

met dearie on sun =) whahaha hmm we did the same routine we do for the past 1 mth?? i dunno.. i think dear got bored and said its boring.. i dunno.. im a guy with no ideas.. whaha.. hmm.. cos Singapore realli so small.. and with like limited time tgd.. like wadde.. =( can we have more time?? but i dunno.. with baby ard.. doing the same thing doesnt tire mi out.. i dun get bored.. cos wad i wan is to be with her.. i dunno.. where can we go?
dear.. i have tot on the qn u asked mi tt dae.. i will not leave u..

dear was talking to Der when i fell aslp on dunno which day.. forgot.. i fell asleep.. whaha den baby hang up the fone.. but dunno why .. whenever dear hang up i'll wake up and call back.. ahah doubts mi.. so tt dae i woke up immediately.. but im too tired to call back.. fell back to slp.. (^(O.o)^). the nxt morning.. i woke up and saw her msg.. telling mi she talkin to him.. and i check the msg time.. she talk with him like 1 hr.. my heart sang..
though i know baby talk to him abt her fren's mum funeral.. but the tot of her talking to him makes my heart sink..
Baby talk to him.. den she brought up the old times with him.. cos dunno why Der is suffering frm memory loss all of a sudden.. so they are raking abt the past.. im like =(((((((( though i realli know tts nth on.. but.. i dunno *shrugs*.. i trust sweetie.. but just felt down at tt moment.. does tt happen to all pple or me onli..

i dunno why i am very very emotional just now.. whahaha.. i had watery eyes.. im listening to a song by jay chou.. qi li xiang.. its not the lyrics.. cos i canoot catch wad he singing.. its the music.. i dunno why but dearie keep flashing in my mind lor.. i blast the song (using headphone) and i totally engrossed myself in the song..
keep thinkin of dear..
how we first met.. cos we know each other thru internet games.. den 1st met.. 1st time i date some1 out who i knew thru internet..
our 1st hug..
our 1st kiss..
our quarrels..
our cold war..
our sweet talks..

i just keep thinkin of her.. i realli realli thank God for placing her in my life.. ILOVE U DEAR!! CAN U HEAR!?!? I LOVE YA..

den i was thinkin if dear leave me.. i realli dunno wad i'll do... i reallli dunno.. *lost*
dear dun.. but if u are happier i wil not stop ya..

im now so .. i dunno.. this song irritating.. totally capture me.. whaha.. teared.. stewpid song.. put mi in tots.. make mi emotional.. hmm .. haiz.. dear we can do it.. though still a very very long..
we will..
we can.. =)
dear i love ya.. =)
love ya..
spongebob roy..

16th August

2004-08-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

hiya all... hmm super sianz now.. haiz... writing my report now.. so shitty... i just hate writing report.. its so lame.. aarrrggghh!! just dunno wad to write lor.. stewpid course!!

hmmm waiting for dearie to call mi back.. or msn mi.. haha she went to slp just now.. den i wake her up but i asked her to go get prepare for her F&N o lvls.. haha she haad to cook lor... and she till now still dunno how to cook.. so i asked her to ask her mum lar.. so i guess.. my baby is busy and trying her best to learn =) mUaCkZ jia you !! whaha all of u pls pray for my precious wife hor... tml she having her Os.. hmm thx guys..

yep ytd got church.. whaha realli enjoyed myself there.. =) we were celebrating the 15th anniversary of CHC!!... haha so fun.. we got 60++ ministries.. but onli 30++ gave a short performance all so nice lor.. ahha =)bravo!

met dearie after church lor .. hehe .. met her at City hall.. hmm yalor.. she was late.. cos she is with DERICK.. haha .. when i heard it i was like.. -.- nvm lar.. waited for a while lar.. oh ya!! i wore formal.. lol long sleeve collar shirt and black pants and black leather shoes.. lol.. look old?? no lar.. smart! and mature.. tts wad dear says.. and she tell mi to wear often lor!! whahah 0.0 she say she like it very much.. say im very handsome.. haha.. think dear wanna make mi happi lar.. =) thx dear..

oko.. we went to catch a movie =) THE VILLAGE.. ahha ok lar the show.. we bought htdog bread inside to munch lar.. as usual.. finnishs it b4 the show actually starts.. hmm.. =P.. hmm ya lor.. we ate and shop ard.. dear looking for jeans and belt.. and she bought a dunno wads tt called.. a cloth tts wraps ard ur body.. lol.. can subsitute a jacket lar..

after tt met Glenn and Manda .. went to watch the fireworks ... we had a very nice view... was on the bridge.. but both mi and dear was unprepared.. we did not bring our cameras.. cos cos "jio" us last min lar.. lol
but gd lar.. .at least he got ask.. and its worth it.. the fireworks is DAMN NICE hahaha.. sososoos nice.. lol i realli dunno how to describe.. but its realli realli realli nice... splendid!! lasted quite long though... longer den i expected.. lol ok.. den we went to eat at Garlic retaurant.. and ate dessert.. haha and Dearie went jealous?? ahha... cos i saw... YT and i saw big bum..hahha... both were my.. u know who.. lol... ya lor.. she went soo jealous hehe.. silly dear.. yalor.. eat le.. den sent her home..

i think i realli nid a phone... my phone a lil sucky... buttons are pathetic.. and that idiotic Glenn keeps changing phone where u dun get any new ones.. lol my hp is already like.. going to 3 yrs old?? i dunno.. hmmm
poor roy.. sadded.. whahaha.. .any1 wanna buy fone for mi??

k lar.. i wanna go do my report le.. wanna slp.. tml still got a speech and presentation to do.. dumb course.. lol sianz to the max.. miss dear so much.. haha .. cya.. bye.. God bless..

14th August

2004-08-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

halo every1.. ahha so sianz...
here to blog a lil lar... nth to say... heex... cos nth much hapens??

had tennis on fri.. tt is yesterday?? ahha ya lor... quite fun.. just found out tt my tennis improved i think?? dunno.. haha dear said so too.. but dunno issit she make mi happi one.. yalor... b4 tennis we played a lil arcade in the club.. haha play $3 worth of it.. hehe...ya lor.. and she wanna eat.. -.- always say diet but keep eating.. scold her also no use.. always skip proper meals.. but always eat snacks.. ahah box her.. she bought chicken wings.. and she eat till so cute lor.. like small gal whahaha.. she eat.. den all the crumps drop on ur skirt.. lool.. haiyo.. den still happily eating.. ahaha =) so cute~~ bth.. den i must help her sweep away.. heex..

hmm... just now was talkin abt she and her direction prpob lol... dear everytime dunno how to go to this place and tt place.. haha always i must lead.. lol dunno why.. she toot toot de.. haha dear ah.. must learn ok.. or else nxt time i die u how?? haha den everytime she will trip on stuffs.. or wad.. but always hold on to her =).. will try all my best.. realli ALLL my best.. not to let her fall.. cant bear to see her hurt =) loving ya..

Yep dear got her o lvl results liaoz .. her chinese one.. hiaz.. she got B3.. ahha she aiming for A.. nvm dear its ok.. its gd.. haha =) haiz.. hate to talk abt chinese o lvl.. cos i got C5 or C6 forgot.. and i lost to the pathetic Glenn Lim Wei Teck... stewpid ass... his chinese is super pathetic.. but he got B4?? or B3?? ... aaargghh... idiot.. sad.. he everytime fail one.. but like tt.. wads this.. he cant een speak chinese.. ok dun deny glenn.. whahha
anw he intro mi a job lar.. haha gd.. going to work in the hol.. get xtra $$ yep =).. thx pal.. working tgd again whaha... wadeva.. Glenn still sucks

hmmm.. ya lor... tml is my church 15th aniiversary.. so i think we all celebrating. =) haha got special event =) yay!!! yep.. gonna enjoy it.. ahaha.. but the thing is tt its an adult service.. so we have to wear formal?? haha and i dunno wad to wear lor... think i'll look stewpid.. dunno lar.. haha sianz.. wad to wear ..wad to wear..

k lar.. i gtg.. going to call dear.. i think she wait quite long le.. she got menstrual cramps.. poor baby.. mUaCkz.. loving ya dear... jia you.. see ya tml.. yay!! tml can see u le.. whahah so happi... hmmm where to bring u.. i'll ponder lar..

k nitez guys... =) all the best.. =) God bless..

10th August

2004-08-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

yoyoyoyo everyone.. hahaha... hmmm dunno why alot of ppes say i nv blog any... no wad.... i blog regularly?? rite??? all agree??!?! yay~~.. know ou all agree rite.. haha =) .. .dearie also say i nv blog.. i did! hahaa =P

so sianz... today is so stewpid... got sch whereby sec sch and jc are like holiday?? hmmm so unfair... sadded to the max lor.. haiz.. todays schol is 10-3.. lolx.. sianz.. talked to dearie o0n the way to sch.. haha cos she got no sch -.-.. yep... told her i wanna skipped class... den she angry .. O.o .. but not realli angry lar.. she just wanna make a pt tt she wans mi to go.. haha so cute~ ya lor.. reached class already den put down the fone... hmmm..

called dear during luch.. haha and she is soooOOoOo cute.. hee keep calling mi with tt cute voice... den say she miss mi so much lolxx..den she say she got alot of charm.. cos out of so mani gals i chose her.. lol.. and i said no lor.. haha i said cos she seduce mi whahahah!!!! ya lor.. seduce mi till i like her.. her skills so gd.. lolxx.. hee got a fun talked... we talked quite long.. cos the food i ordered... i wait super long??lik 15 mins?? sianz.. stewpid chef.. lol..

ya lor.. den went home... actually wanan go cut hair.. den.. they NEVER OPEN!!!! aarrrghhh... have been trying to get my hair cut?? but its either they too mani pple or nv open =( sadded... maybe i should have long hair?? hahah dearie sure shout "NO!!!"

On sunday i made dearie cry.. haha haiz... dunno wad happen to mi.. she step on my slippers den i think i reacted too harshly?? i guess the slippers is quite new.. soo.. yep think i shouted at her.. dear im sorry.. i realli dun mean it.. dui bu qi lao po~ haiz.. den she cried lor.. *sobz* den my heart was like *piang*..shattered heart.. made my dear cry.. and she cry in front of mi.. im so heartbroken.. i love ya dear.. hugged and *hong* her.. silly dear.. its my fault..

hee ya lor... miss dear sooOoo much lol... think she slping... cos i called her to rest.. cos she got headache.. poor dearie.. *hugs*.. dear must be thinkin im playing game.. but nope!! ahah im blogging lol yay!! heex she will be surprised i guess.. hee. dunno why she likes to read my blog.. haha she say nice to read.. but i dun find it interesting in any way.. lolxx.. just hope my blog will bring her a million smiles =)

tml im going to have tennis again~~ sch one.. its getting better lar.. cos now left quite few pple.. so can play more.. lol.. yep.. tml sch is so early.. haiz.. 830-3.. den tennis.. haha sadded... yep.. OH YA!! today my new have started to renovate yay!! ahah adad say will finish abt 2 mths lata.. cant wait to move house.. den i'll have my own bedroom?? and most importantly it means dear's o lvl will end soon.. ahha wooooot~ lalala yayaya hahha so happi.. .think im mad..den if she go Singapore Poly den MUAhahahaah8aaha.. den after sch can go my house... wWHAhaahahha.... i guess i think too much.. hee.. think i realli mad.. hmmm God bless mi.. heee

Think i blog very lil leh... den dear will nag... say i everytime blog lil... but the longer i blog the happier she gets haha.. hmm i think thats all le lar... ahah i wanna bathe le... so stinky and sticky.. haha =P babay i love u ok =) God bless everyone =)

2nd August..

2004-08-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

heheeh.. hiyee guys.. hmm ll just bathed.. hmm.. shiok! cold shower best.. today's shcol is sooOOo boring.. ok wat's new rite? haha.. mondays are the worst man.. 8-5.. ahaha deaded.. luckily nxt week is national day den no sch!! yea!! *starts to love national day* lol..

hmmm... met Glenn just now.. hmm a while for dinner.. talked lar.. dunno how long nv meet already.. aha.since my bdaE? haha we went to food court lar.. dun wanna waste money.. but we ate alot.. hmm so still spend alot?? hahah... ate pig's organ soup(yummy).. haha.. den we ate fruits?? miracle eh?.. den we talk alot.. den saw pple eat oyster carrot cake*drools* so we went to buy.. LOLxx.. ya lor.. den went hommeee..

hmmm.. last sat went to meet dearn family for dinner.. went to a stall at macpherson there to eat lor.. den found out tt no 1 had enough cash.. so dear's parents were like -.- haha.. but i g ot lar.. =) her dad returned.. so u all dun think i treat.. its not tt way.. lolxx.

hahah ytd met dear again!! !ahha this week met 3 times.. lol.. her mum like not happi.. oopss.. ahha hmm but when i send her home her father was ok.. still smiling lar.. hope its not appearance onli.. lol..
okie.. was our 6th monthniversary on the 31st lar.. hee.. yay!! bought dearie a pink rose.. so nice.. think she liked it lar.. wanna read her comments go see her blog lor.. keke.. hmm and wrote a small card for her.. hee.. yep met her after church lar.. took cab to but the flower and meet her.. cab fare $12.00.. lol nvm lar.. church end late so take cab lor.. hehe.. we ate at yoshinoya.. den went shopping.. she pulled mi to take those neoprint cards?? or wadeva.. was my 1st time.. hmm nv went there cos its so girly lor.. lol but since she wan soOOo much and our monthniversary so i went in lor.. haha.. =) view the pics at my dearie's blog lar.
ya lor.. den we went to suntec yep.. bought tix for King Arthur.. den went for a walk.. dear bought ear studs from Perlini's silver.. $5 haha small stars.. realli enjoyed myself lor. haha the show not bad lar.. dearie likes it alot.. hmm ahah she says she wanna be a "gentle" warrior.. O.o den i told her i wanna be a mute singer LOL!!! haha how can a warrior be gentle lor.. hmm yep.. love dear soo much. she's just so cute and sweet..

love ya dear.. be there for u always. mUaCkZ..

roy

31th July..

2004-07-31T12:45:00.000+08:00

ytd had tennis.. ahha.. hmm phone almost spoilt.. haha.. i left my fone in dearie's bag.. and yep.. when we reached the club.. we found out tt apple juice is spilled in her bag.. darn cap went loose.. haha.. best rite.. haha so everything inside the bag is "drunk" haha.. luckily her digi cam is alrite.. hmm haha.. we went to the toilet to get the things wiped and cleaned.. i help dearie clean her fone.. so turn out her fone is ok.. but i kindof tore the kep pad.. haha while washin.. lol i so clumsy.. and the keypad 2 went missing.. lolxx.. dunno la.. haha cannot find it in the end.. stange..

My fone was spoilt... cannot even on it.. haha =( but in the end it recovered.. so i guess the liquid haven dry up at 1st.. so cannot operate.. lata dry up liaoz.. den ya lor.. worked =) dun worry dear.. not ur fault.. dun blamed urself.. now its working ah = ) love u ok.. hee.. ytd i noe u are upset tt u made it spoilt.. can feel it.. den i wanna hug u .. but u like dun wan.. guess u blaming urself.. its ok.. =) even its spoilt i will not scold.. i will not raise my voice... cos ilu ah.. and God loves to put test/trials in our lives.. and if i realli scold.. i think i failed.. =) and im happy i passed it.. heex.. we passed dear .. *smiles*

hmm... today i woke up and saw dearie's msg =).. i simply cant help to smile.. imagine u can see the msg ur dearie sent the 1st thing u open ur eyes.. =) she ask mi if u can meet her for lunch.. haiz.. but i woke up kind of late.. pig me..cos usually we dun meet on sat.. tts why i slp late. but dearie is kind of unhappy.. den the worst thing is tt i forgot todae is our 6th month anniversary.. im such an idiot.. tt hurt dear the most.. but how i wished i can at least explain... i realli remember the whole week.. but it just slipped off.. i..*sigh*..
made dearie super sad.. guess im a lousy bf.. think i failed this one.. i sucked.. i just suck.. dear said we are getting further n further.. =( she said maybe its becos we are not meeting as often .. cos now we onli meet once a week ma.. cos her mum wanna "discipline" her.. cos her o lvl coming.. both of us are like dying to meet each other a week.. but its realli emotionally draining... dear everytime will think of the pessimistic side.. cos we realli meet little.. and ya lor.. meet on sundays.. if she got yf den meet at 3.. den the next day is monday got sch.. so we like meet a few hours.. like realli not enough to cover up for the week.. maybe that's why dearie say i dun love her alr... den she asked mi if i liked someone else.. i realli nv lar.. = (
o lvl... -.- .. big big obstacles... *sigh*.. can u get lost. haha .. it will end ard 22 nov if i nv remember wrongly.. roughly 4 mths?..aaargghh!! dun wanna lose baby..

baby char.. Happy 6th month anniversary.. =) i love u and it never decrease.. just going up and up.. =) though we realli meet very little.. i still do.. still do love u dear.. and miss u.. hope u do too?? though negative though cross ur mind sometimes.. dun care.. stupid devil.. haha. just keep in mind tt baby roy is always thinkin of u.. and u never left his mind at all.. =) *smiles*

loving ya...

baby roy loves u..

28th July

2004-07-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

hmm... today i got tennis.. haha.. so boring again~~.. today i like kind of hit onli 10 balls?? den that's all.. cos it rained.. ahah best liaoz.. -.-.. so went home lor.. lol..

nth to blog leh.. nth much happen?? hehe oh ya.. dearie got something on in schol lar.. must wear nice nice... haha i dunno how to spell the thing leh.. ediqueiteE?? dunno ahaha.. baby sure laugh at mi de.. sigh.. haha den guess she took a lot of pics todae lor.. haha... cos i wanna see.. and baby so vain ed.. lol wanna see herself pretty too.. lolx..

hmm just now i was playing game.. den baby on the way home.. so wanna call her le.. while quitting the game she msged me tell mi not to call her le.. say i play game all these den she will not pick up if i called.. i did treid to call.. guess more den 3 times.. ya lor.. den she nv pick up =(... nv give mi time to quit the game.. hiaz.. nvm lar.. think im too slow lar.. my fault.. = (

now kind of feeling down... think nxt time i must quit faster.. hiaz.. why am i so slow.. sigh.. slow roy..

27th July

2004-07-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

hehee... now im playing guitar while.. hmm.. blogging.. lol.. christian songs.. lalala... ok.. sch has been equally boring.. ya lor.. realli nth to blog abt... so.. hmm..

Last sunday... met dearie.. at serangoon.. den took a cab to my church.. invited her to my church la.. so yep.. cab is like.. $15?? haha.. -.- . The service is short.. cos there's an event.. weekend connection.. evangelistic event.. so pple will bring friends.. i ask 2 pple.. both cannot make it..so nvm lor.. my cell grp usually got 22 pple?? but have to book like 40 seats i guess... Max told mi 42.. O.o

Dearie.. got a lil stony there.. dunno why.. but recovered a guess.. dunno her lar.. told mi she is like tt.. always uses this excuse.. hmm..*wonders*.. ya lor... den went out with the cell grp.. we went Suntec.. went to the food court to eat.. but Baby n i headed to the cinema 1st nad bought tickets 1st.. hehe i.robot . den ate dessert there.. aloe vera logan..after tt.. went to wallet shop lo.. bought dearie a wallet.. pink colour hope she likes it... n cherish it.

Cell grp went home... and we went food court again?? haha.. cos im hungry =P.. im no pig ok! its PUBERTY.. ahah yay! i ate beef noodles.. and dear ate.. ramen?? let mi think.. ya.. sweet n sour ramen.. had a great time eating.. we look like young married couples.. =) hmm.. den we went for the show lor.. the show not bad quite nice.. but the cinema is so cold.. poor baby still wear sleeveless.. hmm.. hugged her lar. dunno got much use anot..haha.. hope so..

Send her home aft tt lor.. haha had a great time on the train.. laughed all the way home.. and everytime my dear dear laughs alot.. she tears.. so have to dry my baby's face.. mUaCkz.. hehex.. ya lor.. laugh alot.. so nice.. lol... oh ya remembered smthing.. quarrel with dear dear also.. not on the train.. b4 we bought the wallet.. haha.. hmmm 1st time dear dear apologise.. haha.. dun deny.. eh.. 1st time lor.. haha..

rtealli enjoyed myself lor.. with her ard.. wad do u expect.. im always happi lol.. =)
k lar.. i gtg.. i wanna play guitar.. and wake my parents and my neighbourhood up.. =) bye.. cya